21-Dec-2011

Dear Dom,

It's been 2 years and 3 months since you passed away.  We went to Good Shepherd last Sunday to put up a small Christmas tree and other stuff to cheer you up.  Christmas has always been a joyous event when you were here.  The minute you woke up you are excited to see what Santa has brought you for Christmas.  We always visit the Reays on Christmas day and you always enjoy visiting.  You get to play with Rooney and get more presents.  Mummy and I are so proud that you always want to share your presents.  You cared more about being with people (and Rooney!) rather than getting stuff. 

Emmeline has been growing since she was born.  It's hard not to think why Emme is healthy and you turned out sick.  It just seems unfair.  We wish you were here and we wish you were born healthy.  We will never get over the grief we have since we lost you.

I hope you can see us and be with us when you can.

I love you Dom,
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24-Nov-2011

Dear Dom,

It's Thanksgiving today.  It's hard to be thankful knowing you're not here with us.  The holidays were always about you.  The smile, laughter and joy you had during the holidays were a gift to me and mummy.  We always wanted you to be happy and enjoy everything.  We planned things for you during the holidays and went on vacations for you.  

As you know, your sister Emmeline is here with us.  We'd like to give her the same opportunity and love we've given you.  We wish our family was together like before you passed away.  

Mummy and I continue to think of you and talk about you.  We share pictures we have of you.  You are the cutest boy and so fun to be with.  I will always miss our time together.

I love you Dom

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20-Nov-2011

Dear Dom,

It's been 2 years and 2 months since you passed away.  The pain lingers in our hearts and we will always wish you were here with us.  Your baby sister was born on Nov 9, 2011.  You would've been such a great big brother.  Mummy and I remember how you liked little kids.  The mannerisms of your sister would've made you laugh.  I know that you would want to help and you would be curious about what your sister is up to next.  Her name is Emmeline and sometime we call her Em or Emme.  

We haven't had a chance to visit Good Shepherd since your sister was born.  Mummy is in pain after her surgery.  We're also not supposed to take your sister in public places yet until she gets her shots 2 months after she was born.  So we're careful about where we go.  We've been to Dr Kasamatsu last week so she could be checked and we'll be there again tomorrow.

It's not the same when you're not here.  We want to give your sister the same chance and opportunity we gave you.  But it's hard to do the same things without feeling guilty or sad. 

We wish you were here with us and we know you'd enjoy your sister.  

I love you Dom,

Dad


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9-Nov-2011

Dear Dom,

Your baby sister, Emmeline, was born today.  Mummy and I wished you were here with us.  We could only imagine how excited you would've been.  The journey of mummy's pregnancy would definitely pique your curiosity.  I know you would've been a proud brother and I know you would want to help to take care of Emmeline.

We will never forget about you Dom.  When the time comes, we will let Emmeline know about you.  It's hard not to think of you today.  We still wish you're here with us everyday.

I love you, Dom
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26-Oct-2011

Dear Dom,

It has been a while since I wrote to you.  I've been wondering the past few weeks if we'll ever get a sign from you.  I just realized yesterday that maybe you have been giving us a sign.  As you probably know I run around the neighborhood and every time I go to the old neighborhood close to where Sammy lives, the golden retriever (just like Rooney) comes running to me and begging to be petted.

2 years have gone by and it's still painful to think that you are no longer here with us.  Mummy and I always talk about the funny and silly things you did.  Halloween is coming up next Monday and all the kids in our neighborhood will be out trick-or-treating.  About a few months before you passed away, you put on the astronaut costume and you told mummy you wanted to wear it for Halloween.  You looked so cute with the picture mummy took.  It'll be another painful reminder on Halloween for us.  We wish our life was back to where it was when you here.  We had so much fun and so much to look forward to.

Your sister is due anytime now.  You would've been such a great big brother.  We always wondered how you would've experienced mummy's pregnancy.  You would've enjoyed seeing the baby move in mummy's tummy and the expectations of having a baby sister.

We'll always remember you for the rest of our lives.  You are our favorite boy and we look forward to being with you in the after life.

I love you, Dom
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18-Sep-2011

Dear Dom,

2 years ago on the same day yesterday, Saturday, was the most dreadful day mummy and I ever experienced.  We were hoping you would be coming home but you passed away instead.  The past few days have been very painful with the worst memory of your stay in the hospital.  We still cannot believe that you are no longer here with us.  We always wish that you are here with us.  Tomorrow , the 19th of Sept, is your calendar anniversary that marks 2 years of pain.  Mummy and I will always wonder what we could've done different to keep you safe and healthy.  But we know it will not bring you back.

We hope to see and be with you in the after life.  We think of you everyday and we talk about you everyday.  We wish you can show us signs that you're with us if you can.  I hope you can hear me when I talk to you.

As you probably know, you have a sister who's in mummy's tummy.   We hope she can bring us hope and happiness.  We had 7 great years with you but your unexpected passing leaves us hopeless.  You will always be our funny silly boy and you will always be the best boy ever!

I love you so much, Dom
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21-Aug-2011

Dear Dom,

Tomorrow is your birthday.  We're already in pain leading to your birthday.  I try to think of the great memories we have of you.  But on your birthday tomorrow, you're still not here with us.  Mummy is having a hard time.  We wish you were here with us.

About a week before you birthday in 2009, we went to Toys R Us.  I bought you an ATV but didn't want you to know so it would be a nice surprise.  Mummy stayed with you while I bought the ATV and loaded the huge box in the Land Cruiser.  On the way home, you noticed the box and touched the box and asked - What's This?  I'm not sure what mummy or I said but we said it was something else so it didn't ruin the surprise.  On the day of your birthday that year, we had you go in the garage after your breakfast.  I saw the joy and happiness when you saw what you got.  You were so excited riding the ATV.  We went to the park so you can enjoy your present.  I think your birthday fell on a Saturday and so we invited friends and family to Chuck E Cheese's that night.  You had such a great time - the pictures and videos say it all.

That was 2 years ago.  Now we have a very sad and empty feeling on your birthday.  I wish you were here and I wish we have our lives back when you were here with us.  We're always in pain and we miss you everyday.

I love you, Dom
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16-Aug-2011

Dear Dom,

In 6 days, it'll be your birthday- you would've been 9 if you were here with us.  On Sept 19, your death anniversary is coming up.  It doesn't get easy.  It's very painful for mummy and I that you are not here with us.  These next few weeks will be very rough on us.

It's hard to believe that it's almost 2 years since you passed away.  We continue to live your great memories in our hearts and mourn losing you.  Your smile in photos and videos brings some hope that someday we can be together again after our lives pass on earth.  We miss you everyday.  We miss your voice, your laugh, your singing and just about everything you do.  We are constantly reminded of your memory when we see kitties, pets, pool, and things you enjoyed when you were here with us.  Our lives have changed and it has been awful living day-to-day without you.

I still remember 2 years ago when we planned for your birthday.  We bought you an ATV which you loved so much.  We went around the neighborhood and I had to run fast to catch up with you.  Our park was your ATV terrain with all the bumps you wanted to go over.  You had a great birthday at Chuck E Cheese when we had friends and family to celebrate.  But now it's all memories.  I wish you were still here and I wish we had our lives back when you were here.

I love you so much, Dom.
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29-Jul-2011

Dear Dom,

It's been a while since I last wrote to you.  I still think about you everyday and talk to you when I'm driving, running, or just about everywhere I am.  Mummy and I continue to talk about you and remember the great memories we have of you.  Like tonight we were reading things you wrote to Ocean about Bubble Bath.  You said something like Dear Ocean, Bubble Bath is not nice... Dear Ocean, Bubble Bath's house is disgusting.  When we see pets we think of you.  When we see or hear cute things we think of you.  When we see or hear funny things we think of you.

Sometimes I wonder if you ever knew your life will be cut short.  Everyday you seem to live life as if there was no tomorrow.  You did not want to miss anything.  As soon as you woke up you're ready to have fun.  The day before you passed away you told me ... "Dad, I think I'm dead."  I wonder if angels visited you and you knew you were going soon. 

It'll be 97 weeks tomorrow since you passed away.  All our friends and family have moved on. Mummy and I feel so sad you're not here with us.  It's hard to live day to day knowing that you're not here with us.  We're having a baby girl in November. You would be so excited to have a sister and you'd be so curious as to what's going on in mummy's tummy.  You would've been a great big brother ... helping out and taking care of a baby sister.  We wish you were here with us and we wish we were a happy family.

As you know we were at our house in the desert the last few days.  Your memories are with us everytime we go to our house.  We bought the house for you.  We knew how you loved swimming.  I miss playing Go Coaster and Tower of Terror in the pool with you.  I miss how you enjoyed the amphitheater after we have dinner at the Cheesecake Factory in Rancho Mirage.  I miss your great smile and laughter and how you loved us back.  I miss how you enjoyed the car ride when we go places.  I miss everything about you.

I love you Dom,
Dad




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12-Jun-2011

Dear Dom,

Yesterday was 90 weeks since you passed away. It's hard to believe that you've been gone for such a long time.  We still think of you every day and mummy and I talk about you every day.  You left us with great memories.  I still feel that you're here with us sometimes - like showing a sign that you're around.  The light in our bedroom would turn on occasionally.  Pets in the neighborhood would come to me when I'm running or I would see birds fly by close and things like that.  We wake up sad without you and sometimes it's too hard to bear knowing you're not here with us.  We were so happy when you were here.  We had so much fun going on vacations, visiting friends and relatives, going to theme parks or even biking or riding your ATV in our neighborhood.  We miss everything about you - your smile, laugh, voice and great personality.

There's a new Sprint commercial that has cats.  When mummy and I first saw the commercial, it reminded of us of how you used to watch cats on You Tube.  The commercial had cats doing funny and silly stuff and we know you would've liked it had you seen it here.

We hope to be with you in the after life and be a family again.  We miss you so much and life will never be the same for us here since you passed away.

I love you and miss you, Dom
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8-May-2011

Dear Dom,

It's Mother's Day today.  It'll be another very sad day for mummy.  You're no longer here with us and it's very painful every day to live without you.  On special occasions like today, we miss you more than ever.  How I wish you were here.

I had a dream about you last night.  You and I were in the backyard playing with Razors.  I miss our fun times together.  We go around the neighborhood on your bike or your ATV.  We go places like Universal, Disney, the water park in the desert, and whatever we felt like doing.

I love you Dom
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24-Apr-2011

Dear Dom,

Happy Eater!  It's our 2nd Easter Sunday without you.  I remember when we had Easter at our house with the Reays.  You had a great time in the backyard hunting for Easter eggs.  Of course, eating Easter chocolates were great.  How I wish you were here!  We're lost without you.  We feel empty and devastated without you here.  Even today after 83 weeks we still wonder why you passed away, wonder what happened, and wonder what could we have done different.  We'll never know the answers and it will never bring you back.  You were the greatest son in the world and it's so painful to live everyday without you.  We miss everything about you from the moment you wake up and walk in our room to bedtime when you say good night. 

Mummy and I talk about you all the time - remembering the great memories we have of you. 

I love you and miss you Dom,
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16-Apr-2011

Dear Dom,

It's been 82 weeks today since you passed away.  Life has never been the same for us.  Mummy and I talk about the funny and cute stuff you've done and said.  It keeps a smile on our face to remember the great memories of you.  Yet it's so sad that you are no longer here with us.  You had a unique laugh that puts a smile on our face.  When we were in San Juan Capistrano, we were looking at some horses.  One of the horses started neighing and you were cracking up.  I wish we had a video of you laughing at the horse neighing - so I can watch it over and over again.  I also remember the 1st time I heard you laugh. You had to be at CHOC to get chemotherapy.  Mummy went home to freshen up and get some sleep.  I was taking care of you during the day.  I was holding you in my arms and walking around the room and I slightly dipped a bit (don't remember why) and you started laughing.  It was joy to my ear to hear you laugh the 1st time and gave me hope that everything was going to be OK.

Mummy and I went to dinner last night.  When we came home the fan and light were on in our living room.  It was a nice surprise that you were here with us to visit.  We will always wish you are here with us.  I long for the day when I pass away and join you in heaven.  I want us to be a family again and be together forever. 

As you probably know losing you was so devastating for our family.  Mummy has a hard time coping without you.  I think of you everyday and I talk to you in private when I can.  I try to relive the days when you were here with us and thinking of every day when you were here. 

We miss you so much, Dom.  You are the best and most wonderful son.  You made mummy and I so proud of what you've accomplished in life. 

I love you Dom,
Dad


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13-Mar-2011

Dear Dom,

It was 77 weeks yesterday since you passed away.  Mummy and I went to Long Beach to attend a memorial service sponsored by One Legacy.  When you died, we agreed to donate your eye tissue so we can help someone else see better.  There were other families who attended who lost a loved one - a child, brother or sister, wife or hustband, mummy or daddy.  It brought us back to the worst loss we've ever had.  How we wish that things were still the same for our family before you passed away.

We will never forget you and we will always think of you every day.  We hope for the day when we can all be together in the after life.

Mummy and I may be expecting another child (or maybe twins).  Having more kids will help us move on.  You would've been a great big brother for our family.  We hope  to expand our family before the end of this year.

I  miss you so much Dom and I love you,
Dad


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21-Feb-2011

Dear Dom,

It's been 74 weeks since you passed away.  Nothing's changed for us and we still miss you so much.  Mummy and I talk about you everyday and the wonderful things you've done to make us laugh.

As I was running today in the neighborhood, I saw Mocha down the street.  I remember how excited you were when Mocha came to our house.  You even fed her when she was in our backyard.  We have pictures of you petting Mocha and you looked like the happiest kid on earth.  For the last few weeks I've been seeing cats that look like Rosy.  I hope it's a sign from you.  The shelf light in our master bedroom turned on yesterday morning.  Mummy had a dream about you and when she woke up the light was on.  I remember the first few days after you passed away that the shelf light turned on every morning.

We are able to function and do some stuff.  We will never forget you for as long as we live.  We hope to be with you in the after life and be a family again.

I love you and miss you, Dom

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26-Jan-2011

Dear Dom,

As I was running in the neighborhood today, a golden retriever chased me.  It stopped when I did and came to me.  I had a chance to pet the dog for a little bit.  It looked like Rooney but a little shorter.  Rooney was just a big dog - but that never scared you or bothered you.  I remember the last time Rooney was here.  Mummy was going to the airport to get the Reays and Rooney was going with mummy.  You gave Rooney such a big hug.

I love you and miss you Dom,
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23-Jan-2011

Dear Dom,

It's been 70 weeks since you passed away or about a year and 4 months.  It's still unbelievable that you're gone.  Every day when we wake up it's a sad feeling that you will not be around.  It has been very painful for us since we lost you.  I still wonder if there was anything we could have done to save you.  It's not going to bring you back but I still continue to wonder.  If you can see us or be with us you know that our family is no longer the same.  We are very sad and angry that you're gone.  We miss you so much and every morning when mummy and I wake up we think about you.

We have great memories of you.  It makes us smile when we remember what you used to say.  Like today mummy and I were talking about how you used to say "Sapphie soft.  sapphie nice.  sapphie bites!"   You always wanted to pet Sapphie but sometime she's mean and bites.

Last weekend, mummy and I went to our house in the desert just for the day to swap furniture.  The cat that looked like Rosie was gone.  I thought maybe she'd still be around wanting to be petted and given food.

This week as I was running around our neighborhood, a kitten was meowing loud at me.  It was under an SUV parked by the haunted house. Also I've been seeing streets where kids have chalked - like what you used to do.  I remember the freeways and stop lights you used to draw.  I was so glad that you enjoyed chalking.  I wish I could still see your art work but it's been washed away by the rain.

I miss you so much Dom and I love you,
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8-Jan-2011

Dear Dom,

We're at our house in the desert today.  As we walked in the house, there was a cat meowing by the front door.  It looked like Rosie. She's been at our house all day long and going in the backyard.  When Dave's out in the backyard the cat would tag along wherever Dave goes.  I remember the time when Mocha came to our house in Huntington Beach.  You were so excited and wanted to play with her.  We have picture of you petting her in the back yard as well as by the front door.  You would've loved to play with the cat here in the desert.

I love you and miss you Dom,
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4-Jan-2011

Dear Dom,

It's another year without you.  Mummy and I were sad at the beginning of 2011. Most people celebrate the New Year but our family will never be happy without you.  It's been a devastating loss for us.  I still can't believe that you are gone.  The summer before you passed away had been great.  You saw your doctors and had a good MRI; you looked healthy.  We'll never know whatever happened to you.  And we will always think of what we could have done different and maybe you'd still be with us.

We continue and try to keep busy to ease the pain of losing you.  We saw movies and painted the house after Christmas.  But at the end of the day, it's still very sad that you are not with us.  I wish for the day when we can all be together again in the after-life.

I love you Dom,
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