Dear Dom,
A week from today is Halloween. Mummy, Dave, and I will be missing you badly. We left you a small pumpkin at Good Shepherd. It's not the same anymore. You'd be enjoying Halloween by now if you were here - maybe a visit to the pumpkin patch like we used to, or a theme park where they have Halloween decors everywhere , or whatever. This time last year we were so devastated that we lost you. We still can't believe it. The last summer we spent together was so great and it's so unfair that you are no longer here.
Last night I had a dream about you. We were in a new house in Irvine with a loft. You and I were on the top floor or the loft and we were walking down the stairs to the family room on the 2nd floor. You said hi to Kelsey who was just sitting there - I think maybe reading. Mummy had a dream about you as well spending time with cousins and David. I hope it's a sign of you telling us that you're ok.
We saw a movie called Hereafter yesterday and there were times in the movie that I was in tears. I believe there is an afterlife from my beliefs and from what I've been reading. I know you're in a better place and a very safe place. But it's hard to put ourselves at ease since we're still on earth with different feelings and expectations. I want us to be together as a family when mummy and I cross over to the eternal life.
It'll be painful for us again between now to the end of the year. There will be holiday reminders and families enjoying each other - but it's hard for us to even celelbrate. Mummy and I feel that it's not appropriate to celebrate the holidays without you. You were the center of our lives and you brought us happiness. The holidays just make it worse. We are in pain everyday when we think about you and how miss you. Even David is starting to be upset when he thinks about you. You guys had a lot of fun together.
I miss you and love you Dom,
Dad
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Ren Roque
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Monday, October 11, 2010
11-Oct-2010
Dear Dom,
It's been a while since I wrote to you. We've been very sad since your anniversary. Oct 1 was your memorial day anniversary. Last year on Oct 1, a lot of people came to your service. Your teachers, our friends, our family, and almost anyone who knows you who could come were at your service. It was the worst time I've ever been to a church service. I could not believe that you were gone and there was nothing I could do to bring you back. Writing your eulogy and a pamphlet about you was very hard. I think you helped me by being with me as I wrote about your life. By the time I was done writing, it seemed like you wrote it for us.
The days after your service seemed to have gotten worse. There was anger, shock, and the sadness of you not being with us anymore. Mummy and I have been reading books about after life, coping and passing time to ease our pain. We looked at your pictures over and over again, saw your videos repeatedly and talked about you. We wanted everyone to remember you for the rest of their lives.
Here we are a year from your memorial service. It is still very painful. There are days worse than others. Signifcant holidays will be awful since you're not here to enjoy it. We were such a happy family when you were with us. We always did something fun for you to enjoy. Summer of 2009 was one of our best summers and none of us ever thought nor imagined that it would be our last summer with you.
I miss you so much, Dom. It's so painful to wake up without you. Every single moment I think of you.
I love you Dom,
Dad
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Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
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It's been a while since I wrote to you. We've been very sad since your anniversary. Oct 1 was your memorial day anniversary. Last year on Oct 1, a lot of people came to your service. Your teachers, our friends, our family, and almost anyone who knows you who could come were at your service. It was the worst time I've ever been to a church service. I could not believe that you were gone and there was nothing I could do to bring you back. Writing your eulogy and a pamphlet about you was very hard. I think you helped me by being with me as I wrote about your life. By the time I was done writing, it seemed like you wrote it for us.
The days after your service seemed to have gotten worse. There was anger, shock, and the sadness of you not being with us anymore. Mummy and I have been reading books about after life, coping and passing time to ease our pain. We looked at your pictures over and over again, saw your videos repeatedly and talked about you. We wanted everyone to remember you for the rest of their lives.
Here we are a year from your memorial service. It is still very painful. There are days worse than others. Signifcant holidays will be awful since you're not here to enjoy it. We were such a happy family when you were with us. We always did something fun for you to enjoy. Summer of 2009 was one of our best summers and none of us ever thought nor imagined that it would be our last summer with you.
I miss you so much, Dom. It's so painful to wake up without you. Every single moment I think of you.
I love you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
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