24-Oct-2010

Dear Dom,
 
A week from today is Halloween.  Mummy, Dave, and I will be missing you badly.  We left you a small pumpkin at Good Shepherd.  It's not the same anymore.  You'd be enjoying Halloween by now if you were here - maybe a visit to the pumpkin patch like we used to, or a theme park where they have Halloween decors everywhere , or whatever. This time last year we were so devastated that we lost you.  We still can't believe it.  The last summer we spent together was so great and it's so unfair that you are no longer here.
 
Last night I had a dream about you. We were in a new house in Irvine with a loft.  You and I were on the top floor or the loft and we were walking down the stairs to the family room on the 2nd floor.  You said hi to Kelsey who was just sitting there - I think maybe reading. Mummy had a dream about you as well spending time with cousins and David.  I hope it's a sign of you telling us that you're ok.
 
We saw a movie called Hereafter yesterday and there were times in the movie that I was in tears.  I believe there is an afterlife from my beliefs and from what I've been reading.  I know you're in a better place and a very safe place.  But it's hard to put ourselves at ease since we're still on earth with different feelings and expectations.  I want us to be together as a family when mummy and I cross over to the eternal life.
 
It'll be painful for us again between now to the end of the year.  There will be holiday reminders and families enjoying each other - but it's hard for us to even celelbrate.  Mummy and I feel that it's not appropriate to celebrate the holidays without you.  You were the center of our lives and you brought us happiness.  The holidays just make it worse.  We are in pain everyday when we think about you and how miss you. Even David is starting to be upset when he thinks about you.  You guys had a lot of fun together.
 
I miss you and love you Dom,
Dad


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