16-Sep-2012

Dear Dom,

3 years ago this Sunday mummy and I were in a state of shock, disbelief, and grief when you passed away the day before on a Saturday.  It is still very painful and the events leading to your passing is still fresh in our memory.  I wish you were feeling better when I got to the hospital.  Unfortunately when I got to your room all the doctors and nurses were trying to revive you.  As I was driving to CHOC that morning, I felt a cold chill and felt something wasn't right.  Maybe you were there with me in spirit.  But I also thought that if something was wrong then mummy would've called me already.  I wish I got to CHOC earlier when you were still alive. 

The next few days and weeks are going to be awful.  Your calendar death anniversary on Sep 19 and the day you were laid to rest at Good Shepherd on Oct 1 would be painful reminders for us.  Our lives have never been the same without you.  We will always wish you are here with us every day and we will always be thinking of how you would be now if you are here with us.

I love you so much Dom. I will always be thinking of you and hope we can be together again in the after life.

Dad


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22-Aug-2012

Happy Birthday Dom!  I hope you get to celebrate your birthday in heaven.  It'll be a very sad day for us knowing that you're not here.  Today would remind mummy and I that the best day of our lives was 10 years ago when you were born.  You brought us so much happiness.  I remember in the hospital when you were being cleaned up by the nurse and you were holding on to my finger just looking at me.  I felt so proud and so happy that you finally came to our lives.  You gave us the best and happiest 7 years when you were with us.  

How we wish you were still with us.  It's still hard to believe that you passed away.  It seems unfair that you were born with chronic illnesses.  We spent so many days and sometimes weeks at the hospital when you were not well.  I am so sorry for the pain you went through.  I'm sure that you are no longer in pain in heaven.

I love you Dom and I hope we get to be together again as a family when the time comes.

Dad


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30-Jun-2012

Dear Dom,

It's been 145 weeks since we lost you.  As you probably know, I am writing to you from our vacation house in the desert.  Our love for you will never change.  We will always think of you - be sad on special occasions, smile on happy memories when we talk about you, grieve that you are no longer with us.  Every time we pass by CHOC - it's a painful reminder of when you passed away on Sept 19, 2009.  The last summer we all spent together was one of the best we've ever had.  You've taken a trip to England, vacation in Desert Ridge next to Phoenix, a trip to Vegas, and your 7th Birthday at Chuck E Cheese's.  I wish we could be together forever and I wish you were healthy.  It is still hard to accept that you passed away.

Mummy and I have been trying to live for your sister Emmeline.  We always wonder what you would be like with your sister.  You always loved babies and smaller kids and we're sure that you'd be such a great brother.   We look forward to the day when we can all be together in heaven. 

The next few months will be hard on our family.  4th of July is coming up,  your birthday, and your death anniversary.  Everywhere around us reminds us of you.  We miss your voice, your laugh, your presence, and the joy you gave us every day.

I love you Dom
Dad


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10-Apr-2012

Dear Dom,

I dreamt about you last night. I remembered you and I were like next to a school bus and I was saying good bye to you. But the good byes were different. I knew that you were going to heaven and I was talking to you about it. I didn't want you to be scared. I wish I was with you a lot longer. I woke up at 3 AM very sad - it felt real and I just lost you.

I hope we can all be together again someday - in the eternal life.

I miss you so much and I miss all the great times we've had together. I remember great memories of you through your sister. When I take her for a run in our neighborhood I think of you on your bike or ATV; When we're at the desert I think of you swimming in our pool. Everything you enjoyed reminds me of you.

I love you Dom
Dad

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23-Feb-2012

Dear Dom,

Last weekend marked 2 years and 5 months since you passed away.  The last week you stayed at CHOC remains fresh in my mind.  I wish I had gotten to the hospital before you died and maybe I could've held you one last time and told you how much I love you.  Mummy was there holding and comforting you.  It doesn't get easier for mummy.  We have Emme in our lives and we get busy taking care of her and trying to give her the same opportunities and enjoyment we gave you.  It doesn't mean we will forget you or take you for granted.  We always talk about you and we always talk about how you would enjoy being with your sister.

I have saved a lot of your pictures on my computer and I use it to display the pictures when my computer is idle.  It takes me back to the happiest days of my life.   It is still hard to accept that you are gone.  Just looking at how happy you were when you got your ATV on your last birthday makes me wonder why you had to go?  Before you went to school at Village View, you seemed so healthy.  Mummy and I will never understand why.  We miss you so much and we will always wish you are here with us everyday.

I love you Dom,

Dad

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31-Jan-2012

Dear Dom,

It's been a while since I've written to you.  Last Saturday was the 123rd week since you passed away.   We always talk about you and we always think of you.  The pictures that pop out of my computer at work or at home remind me of the great times we've had when you were here with us.  It almost tells a story.  It's also a sad reminder of your last week when you were at CHOC.  It is still hard for us to believe that you are no longer with us.  When I see the beach or a swimming pool, I always think of how you loved swimming and playing in the water.  When I see commercials on TV for Disneyland or Universal, it takes me back to the days when we used to visit the parks and enjoy the day.  You gave us so much love and happiness that we will forever be grateful for.

Your sister, Emme, is doing well.  She's been healthy and happy.  We always wonder why you had so much health problems.  You spent so much time in the hospital the 1st 2 years of your life.  We are starting to feel that we have something to hope for and live for with Emme.  She has been a blessing and she's been helping us in so many ways.  And every cute or funny thing she does reminds us of you.  In so many ways, she looks like you and does things like you used to do.

I love you Dom

Dad


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1-Jan-2012

Dear Dom,

It's a new year and another year has passed without you.  People are cheering and celebrating to welcome the new year 2012.  Mummy and I have sonething to hope for - your sister Emmeline.  But it doesn't change the huge void in our heart snce you passed away. We always think of you and we wonder how it would've been if you were here with Emme.  I know you would have been the best brother.  You always made me and mummy proud.  You had great sense of humor and you cared about how other people felt.

When we were at the desert today, I remembered the time we celebrated New Year just before we got our house.  It was so exciting for us.  We also went to Macaroni Grill at Palm Desert one year and I think it was just before they closed.  We never knew why!

I love you Dom and I hope you can wait for us until we see each other again,
Dad