Dear Dom,
I hope you're having a Merry Christmas in Heaven. Its still a very sad day for me and mummy. Christmas was always about you. When you were here with us we always had family over for Christmas Eve and before midnight we scattered reindeer food in our front yard so Santa and the reindeer would come. When you woke up on Christmas morning you would look over the balcony and check if Santa's been to our house. You'd be so excited when you see presents in our family room by the front door. Then you'd come wake us up so you can open your presents.
Christmas morning was a very happy moment for us. Mummy and I were happy to see you excited and appreciative of the presents you got. We were wondering what you would've put on your list this year.
We miss you so much Dom and we're always sad that you're not here with us. Holidays are not the same anymore and we remember the great memories we have of you.
I love you Dom,
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Saturday, December 25, 2010
Saturday, December 18, 2010
18-Dec-2010
Dear Dom,
It's been 15 months since you passed away. We still think about you everyday and remembering the great memories we have of you. We still wonder all the time why you're no longer with us and if there's anything we could've done different to alter what happened to you. The holidays are so sad for us. Holidays have always been about you. We wanted you to be happy, enjoy life and experience different places and things. And you enjoyed going on vacation and seeing different things.
The last 2 weeks I bumped into a terrier type dog. A few days ago when mummy and I were walking in the neighborhood, a Yorkie came to us and we petted the dog. The Yorkie had a tennis ball in it's mouth and was enjoying being petted. About 2 weeks ago while I was running - a terrier dog came to me. These dogs remind me of a Westie like Angus. The last week you were with us you were so excited to be having a Westie soon. You talked about it to the nurses and everyone who visited you.
Life's changed for us since you've been gone. The joy is no longer there. We may laugh ocasionally here and there but we're crushed deep inside. How we wish you are here with us everyday.
I love you and miss you, Dom
Dad
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It's been 15 months since you passed away. We still think about you everyday and remembering the great memories we have of you. We still wonder all the time why you're no longer with us and if there's anything we could've done different to alter what happened to you. The holidays are so sad for us. Holidays have always been about you. We wanted you to be happy, enjoy life and experience different places and things. And you enjoyed going on vacation and seeing different things.
The last 2 weeks I bumped into a terrier type dog. A few days ago when mummy and I were walking in the neighborhood, a Yorkie came to us and we petted the dog. The Yorkie had a tennis ball in it's mouth and was enjoying being petted. About 2 weeks ago while I was running - a terrier dog came to me. These dogs remind me of a Westie like Angus. The last week you were with us you were so excited to be having a Westie soon. You talked about it to the nurses and everyone who visited you.
Life's changed for us since you've been gone. The joy is no longer there. We may laugh ocasionally here and there but we're crushed deep inside. How we wish you are here with us everyday.
I love you and miss you, Dom
Dad
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Saturday, November 27, 2010
27-Nov-2010
Dear Dom,
It's 62 weeks today since we last saw you. I wanted to write to you so I can remember my dreams about you. Last night, I dreamed that you and I were in a toy store and you were looking at Matchbox-type cars and trucks. I don't remember every detail but you and I were looking at it and playing. I know that you liked cars a lot so that was a great reminder.
We miss you so much and we wish you were here with us. Mummy and I talk about you a lot. It's been very hard since you passed away. We thought it would help by being foster parents but it's harder than we originally thought. Kids like Robert had no discipline and direction from his parents. We're sometimes having a hard time with expectations. But we're trying and we know we're helping.
We're so used to you being so caring, loving, honest, great manners and personality. We wish every kid was like you.
I love you Dom,
Dad
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It's 62 weeks today since we last saw you. I wanted to write to you so I can remember my dreams about you. Last night, I dreamed that you and I were in a toy store and you were looking at Matchbox-type cars and trucks. I don't remember every detail but you and I were looking at it and playing. I know that you liked cars a lot so that was a great reminder.
We miss you so much and we wish you were here with us. Mummy and I talk about you a lot. It's been very hard since you passed away. We thought it would help by being foster parents but it's harder than we originally thought. Kids like Robert had no discipline and direction from his parents. We're sometimes having a hard time with expectations. But we're trying and we know we're helping.
We're so used to you being so caring, loving, honest, great manners and personality. We wish every kid was like you.
I love you Dom,
Dad
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Sunday, November 21, 2010
21-Nov-2010
Dear Dom,
It's been 61 weeks or about a year and 2 months since you've been gone. It's still very sad for us that you are not with us every day. As you know mummy and I have been fostering Robert to help his family. We get busy sometimes to help Robert and Dave with school work. But we're still grieving tremendously. We think about you every day and we wonder what new things you would be doing or how would you look today. Mummy and I continue to talk about your great memories. We had 7 great years with you and we cherish every single day with you.
Next week is Thanksgiving and it'll be very hard for us again. None of this makes sense. I still can't believe you're gone. I still can't believe the doctors were not able to help you as they did in the past. I still can't believe that when I wake up in the morning that you are not here.
Robert had a concert at Marine View last week. It reminded me of you when we attended David's graduation from Marine View. I wish you're with us.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
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It's been 61 weeks or about a year and 2 months since you've been gone. It's still very sad for us that you are not with us every day. As you know mummy and I have been fostering Robert to help his family. We get busy sometimes to help Robert and Dave with school work. But we're still grieving tremendously. We think about you every day and we wonder what new things you would be doing or how would you look today. Mummy and I continue to talk about your great memories. We had 7 great years with you and we cherish every single day with you.
Next week is Thanksgiving and it'll be very hard for us again. None of this makes sense. I still can't believe you're gone. I still can't believe the doctors were not able to help you as they did in the past. I still can't believe that when I wake up in the morning that you are not here.
Robert had a concert at Marine View last week. It reminded me of you when we attended David's graduation from Marine View. I wish you're with us.
I love you and miss you Dom,
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Tuesday, November 9, 2010
9-Nov-2010
Dear Dom,
It's been a while since I wrote to you. It doesn't mean I'm over your death and I'm ok about it. I talk to you daily and hope you know that and maybe even hear what I talk to you about. Just a few minutes ago, I was reading some of the emails my work colleagues sent me and it brings tears as I go through the emails. It's the worst thing that can ever happen to a mom or dad - losing a child. It's beyond comprehension and disbelief that you are no longer here.
You may also have noticed that mum and dad have been taking care of a soon-to-be 12 yr old boy. His brother may be with us tomorrow. Both boys came from a broken home and we're trying to take care of them while their parents get their act together. You always liked company and you probably would've enjoyed these boys. Robby is 12 yrs old and has been with us since last Thursday. He also started going to Marine View yesterday. It was a reminder of how we used to spend afternoons together when we enrolled Robby at Marine View. We would play around the basketball area and the playground. You enjoyed biking around and just having a blast. Ricky is 4 yrs old and needs a lot of help. He's got autism and we need to help him with his social and communication skills. We hope we can help him so he can have a productive life.
Halloween passed and mummy and I escaped to The Block to have dinner and watch a movie. It's still very hard for us to see other kids having a great Halloween and here we are without you. Halloween is one of your favorite days - you get to wear a costume at school and parade around. Then possibly another costume when you do trick-or-treating around the neighborhood. Thanksgiving is coming up in 2 weeks. Mummy and I have nothing to be thankful for. We usually visit family on Thanksgiving and maybe head to our house in the desert.
I miss you so much Dom and I love you so much,
Dad
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It's been a while since I wrote to you. It doesn't mean I'm over your death and I'm ok about it. I talk to you daily and hope you know that and maybe even hear what I talk to you about. Just a few minutes ago, I was reading some of the emails my work colleagues sent me and it brings tears as I go through the emails. It's the worst thing that can ever happen to a mom or dad - losing a child. It's beyond comprehension and disbelief that you are no longer here.
You may also have noticed that mum and dad have been taking care of a soon-to-be 12 yr old boy. His brother may be with us tomorrow. Both boys came from a broken home and we're trying to take care of them while their parents get their act together. You always liked company and you probably would've enjoyed these boys. Robby is 12 yrs old and has been with us since last Thursday. He also started going to Marine View yesterday. It was a reminder of how we used to spend afternoons together when we enrolled Robby at Marine View. We would play around the basketball area and the playground. You enjoyed biking around and just having a blast. Ricky is 4 yrs old and needs a lot of help. He's got autism and we need to help him with his social and communication skills. We hope we can help him so he can have a productive life.
Halloween passed and mummy and I escaped to The Block to have dinner and watch a movie. It's still very hard for us to see other kids having a great Halloween and here we are without you. Halloween is one of your favorite days - you get to wear a costume at school and parade around. Then possibly another costume when you do trick-or-treating around the neighborhood. Thanksgiving is coming up in 2 weeks. Mummy and I have nothing to be thankful for. We usually visit family on Thanksgiving and maybe head to our house in the desert.
I miss you so much Dom and I love you so much,
Dad
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Sunday, October 24, 2010
24-Oct-2010
Dear Dom,
A week from today is Halloween. Mummy, Dave, and I will be missing you badly. We left you a small pumpkin at Good Shepherd. It's not the same anymore. You'd be enjoying Halloween by now if you were here - maybe a visit to the pumpkin patch like we used to, or a theme park where they have Halloween decors everywhere , or whatever. This time last year we were so devastated that we lost you. We still can't believe it. The last summer we spent together was so great and it's so unfair that you are no longer here.
Last night I had a dream about you. We were in a new house in Irvine with a loft. You and I were on the top floor or the loft and we were walking down the stairs to the family room on the 2nd floor. You said hi to Kelsey who was just sitting there - I think maybe reading. Mummy had a dream about you as well spending time with cousins and David. I hope it's a sign of you telling us that you're ok.
We saw a movie called Hereafter yesterday and there were times in the movie that I was in tears. I believe there is an afterlife from my beliefs and from what I've been reading. I know you're in a better place and a very safe place. But it's hard to put ourselves at ease since we're still on earth with different feelings and expectations. I want us to be together as a family when mummy and I cross over to the eternal life.
It'll be painful for us again between now to the end of the year. There will be holiday reminders and families enjoying each other - but it's hard for us to even celelbrate. Mummy and I feel that it's not appropriate to celebrate the holidays without you. You were the center of our lives and you brought us happiness. The holidays just make it worse. We are in pain everyday when we think about you and how miss you. Even David is starting to be upset when he thinks about you. You guys had a lot of fun together.
I miss you and love you Dom,
Dad
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A week from today is Halloween. Mummy, Dave, and I will be missing you badly. We left you a small pumpkin at Good Shepherd. It's not the same anymore. You'd be enjoying Halloween by now if you were here - maybe a visit to the pumpkin patch like we used to, or a theme park where they have Halloween decors everywhere , or whatever. This time last year we were so devastated that we lost you. We still can't believe it. The last summer we spent together was so great and it's so unfair that you are no longer here.
Last night I had a dream about you. We were in a new house in Irvine with a loft. You and I were on the top floor or the loft and we were walking down the stairs to the family room on the 2nd floor. You said hi to Kelsey who was just sitting there - I think maybe reading. Mummy had a dream about you as well spending time with cousins and David. I hope it's a sign of you telling us that you're ok.
We saw a movie called Hereafter yesterday and there were times in the movie that I was in tears. I believe there is an afterlife from my beliefs and from what I've been reading. I know you're in a better place and a very safe place. But it's hard to put ourselves at ease since we're still on earth with different feelings and expectations. I want us to be together as a family when mummy and I cross over to the eternal life.
It'll be painful for us again between now to the end of the year. There will be holiday reminders and families enjoying each other - but it's hard for us to even celelbrate. Mummy and I feel that it's not appropriate to celebrate the holidays without you. You were the center of our lives and you brought us happiness. The holidays just make it worse. We are in pain everyday when we think about you and how miss you. Even David is starting to be upset when he thinks about you. You guys had a lot of fun together.
I miss you and love you Dom,
Dad
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Monday, October 11, 2010
11-Oct-2010
Dear Dom,
It's been a while since I wrote to you. We've been very sad since your anniversary. Oct 1 was your memorial day anniversary. Last year on Oct 1, a lot of people came to your service. Your teachers, our friends, our family, and almost anyone who knows you who could come were at your service. It was the worst time I've ever been to a church service. I could not believe that you were gone and there was nothing I could do to bring you back. Writing your eulogy and a pamphlet about you was very hard. I think you helped me by being with me as I wrote about your life. By the time I was done writing, it seemed like you wrote it for us.
The days after your service seemed to have gotten worse. There was anger, shock, and the sadness of you not being with us anymore. Mummy and I have been reading books about after life, coping and passing time to ease our pain. We looked at your pictures over and over again, saw your videos repeatedly and talked about you. We wanted everyone to remember you for the rest of their lives.
Here we are a year from your memorial service. It is still very painful. There are days worse than others. Signifcant holidays will be awful since you're not here to enjoy it. We were such a happy family when you were with us. We always did something fun for you to enjoy. Summer of 2009 was one of our best summers and none of us ever thought nor imagined that it would be our last summer with you.
I miss you so much, Dom. It's so painful to wake up without you. Every single moment I think of you.
I love you Dom,
Dad
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It's been a while since I wrote to you. We've been very sad since your anniversary. Oct 1 was your memorial day anniversary. Last year on Oct 1, a lot of people came to your service. Your teachers, our friends, our family, and almost anyone who knows you who could come were at your service. It was the worst time I've ever been to a church service. I could not believe that you were gone and there was nothing I could do to bring you back. Writing your eulogy and a pamphlet about you was very hard. I think you helped me by being with me as I wrote about your life. By the time I was done writing, it seemed like you wrote it for us.
The days after your service seemed to have gotten worse. There was anger, shock, and the sadness of you not being with us anymore. Mummy and I have been reading books about after life, coping and passing time to ease our pain. We looked at your pictures over and over again, saw your videos repeatedly and talked about you. We wanted everyone to remember you for the rest of their lives.
Here we are a year from your memorial service. It is still very painful. There are days worse than others. Signifcant holidays will be awful since you're not here to enjoy it. We were such a happy family when you were with us. We always did something fun for you to enjoy. Summer of 2009 was one of our best summers and none of us ever thought nor imagined that it would be our last summer with you.
I miss you so much, Dom. It's so painful to wake up without you. Every single moment I think of you.
I love you Dom,
Dad
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Tuesday, September 28, 2010
28-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This week and last week a year ago, mummy and I were so devastated that you were gone. We still feel devastated and life has changed for the worst for us. It was hard to believe that we were preparing for funeral services last year. We had to visit Heritage Memorial Services and St Bonaventure to arrange for your memorial service. We wrote a tribute and printed off a memorial brochure so we can hand it out to anyone who came to your memorial service. It was very overwhelming and so sad that we had to do these things. You gave us 7 years of great memories and we wish we had many many years with you.
The fan has been turned on in the living room the last 2 days. It was on when I left early for work yesterday and this morning, mummy said it was on again when she came down. It's nice to know that you're still around. How we wish we can see you and feel you. But knowing that you're with us through signs and dreams are comforting.
As you know, I look at your pictures at work all day when I have my laptop on. Each picture is a reminder of how wonderful you are.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
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This week and last week a year ago, mummy and I were so devastated that you were gone. We still feel devastated and life has changed for the worst for us. It was hard to believe that we were preparing for funeral services last year. We had to visit Heritage Memorial Services and St Bonaventure to arrange for your memorial service. We wrote a tribute and printed off a memorial brochure so we can hand it out to anyone who came to your memorial service. It was very overwhelming and so sad that we had to do these things. You gave us 7 years of great memories and we wish we had many many years with you.
The fan has been turned on in the living room the last 2 days. It was on when I left early for work yesterday and this morning, mummy said it was on again when she came down. It's nice to know that you're still around. How we wish we can see you and feel you. But knowing that you're with us through signs and dreams are comforting.
As you know, I look at your pictures at work all day when I have my laptop on. Each picture is a reminder of how wonderful you are.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
---
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Sunday, September 19, 2010
19-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
Today is your death anniversary. It is the 19th and a very sad memory of what happened last year when you passed away.
We wanted to do something for your memory today. About a week ago, we signed up to do a walk in Orange County for the American Heart Association. We asked friends and family if they can donate for the cause in your memory. So this morning, we did our 1st OC Heart Walk for the American Heart Association in your memory. The donations will help fund research and education to fight heart disease. As I was doing the walk today, I saw some people doing a walk in memory of their loved ones. I felt so sad and felt emotional about the cause. How I wish you were born healthy and we would be happy everyday enjoying every moment with you.
I miss you so much Dom and I love you so much,
Dad
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Today is your death anniversary. It is the 19th and a very sad memory of what happened last year when you passed away.
We wanted to do something for your memory today. About a week ago, we signed up to do a walk in Orange County for the American Heart Association. We asked friends and family if they can donate for the cause in your memory. So this morning, we did our 1st OC Heart Walk for the American Heart Association in your memory. The donations will help fund research and education to fight heart disease. As I was doing the walk today, I saw some people doing a walk in memory of their loved ones. I felt so sad and felt emotional about the cause. How I wish you were born healthy and we would be happy everyday enjoying every moment with you.
I miss you so much Dom and I love you so much,
Dad
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Saturday, September 18, 2010
18-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This day on Saturday last year is when you passed away. I left home thinking that you were coming home. I shouldn't have stopped by at Starbucks - maybe I would've had a chance to see you alive. When I got off the elevator on the 4th floor to go to your room, I knew something was wrong. There was a lot of doctors and nurses getting in and out of your room. I tried to rush and wanted to see you but they stopped me outside of your room. Mummy was outside of your room as well, Mummy told me your hear stopped and the doctors were trying to bring you back. The nurse said that you were being given a cardiac massage so your blood and oxygen continue to circulate in your system. We tried to pray and be strong so when you come back we'd be there you. Unfortunately, you never came back.
When Dr Anaz came out to talk to Dr Weiner on the phone - mummy and I were so shocked and devastated that you passed away. Dr Anas tried to bring you back but your heart would not beat anymore. We found out a few weeks later you had a huge blood clot behind your heart.
What turned out to be hopeful for the weekend that you may be coming home ended in the worst nightmare. We called our family and everyone came to see you. Everyone was so shocked and sad that you're gone. The doctors did not have any explanation on what happened - from a good prognosis to you passing away.
Life ended for me and mummy on Sept 19, 2009 Saturday at around 9:10 AM. We never thought we'd ever lose you and here we are a year later still devastated without you.
Mummy and I have been talking about our great memories of you. We visited Good Shepherd again today. It's so painful without you.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
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This day on Saturday last year is when you passed away. I left home thinking that you were coming home. I shouldn't have stopped by at Starbucks - maybe I would've had a chance to see you alive. When I got off the elevator on the 4th floor to go to your room, I knew something was wrong. There was a lot of doctors and nurses getting in and out of your room. I tried to rush and wanted to see you but they stopped me outside of your room. Mummy was outside of your room as well, Mummy told me your hear stopped and the doctors were trying to bring you back. The nurse said that you were being given a cardiac massage so your blood and oxygen continue to circulate in your system. We tried to pray and be strong so when you come back we'd be there you. Unfortunately, you never came back.
When Dr Anaz came out to talk to Dr Weiner on the phone - mummy and I were so shocked and devastated that you passed away. Dr Anas tried to bring you back but your heart would not beat anymore. We found out a few weeks later you had a huge blood clot behind your heart.
What turned out to be hopeful for the weekend that you may be coming home ended in the worst nightmare. We called our family and everyone came to see you. Everyone was so shocked and sad that you're gone. The doctors did not have any explanation on what happened - from a good prognosis to you passing away.
Life ended for me and mummy on Sept 19, 2009 Saturday at around 9:10 AM. We never thought we'd ever lose you and here we are a year later still devastated without you.
Mummy and I have been talking about our great memories of you. We visited Good Shepherd again today. It's so painful without you.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
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Friday, September 17, 2010
17-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This day last year on Friday, you and I were watching Tom and Jerry all day. I had my laptop from work and I used my phone to connect to the internet. We were able to watch all the Tom and Jerry shows on kidswb. We were laughing and having fun. The doctors also mentioned that you were doing well and you would be going home most likely over the weekend. Friday was the last day I saw you alive. I was trying to convince you that I should stay with you at the hospital. I wanted to give mummy a break since she's been staying with you for almost a week.
Later that day on Friday, you were just relaxing in bed and you told me that you felt like you were dead. I didn't know it was a sign or maybe you're telling me something. I wish I could have done something or the doctors could have seen anything wrong that day. I remember the day before that your blood pressure went down a bit but you started getting better later in the day. So much things were going on and we didn't know that you were so sick.
Tomorrow will be a hard day for us. It'll be 52 weeks since you passed away. I will always be grateful for the 7 years you had with us but will be so sad and devastated that you're no longer with us.
I miss you so much Dom and I love you so much,
Dad
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This day last year on Friday, you and I were watching Tom and Jerry all day. I had my laptop from work and I used my phone to connect to the internet. We were able to watch all the Tom and Jerry shows on kidswb. We were laughing and having fun. The doctors also mentioned that you were doing well and you would be going home most likely over the weekend. Friday was the last day I saw you alive. I was trying to convince you that I should stay with you at the hospital. I wanted to give mummy a break since she's been staying with you for almost a week.
Later that day on Friday, you were just relaxing in bed and you told me that you felt like you were dead. I didn't know it was a sign or maybe you're telling me something. I wish I could have done something or the doctors could have seen anything wrong that day. I remember the day before that your blood pressure went down a bit but you started getting better later in the day. So much things were going on and we didn't know that you were so sick.
Tomorrow will be a hard day for us. It'll be 52 weeks since you passed away. I will always be grateful for the 7 years you had with us but will be so sad and devastated that you're no longer with us.
I miss you so much Dom and I love you so much,
Dad
---
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Thursday, September 16, 2010
16-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This day last year on Thursday, you were fnally getting better. You had an echo and your heart looked good. The doctors agreed to move you to a regular floor instead of staying at ICU. Usually that's great news - which means you go home in a few days. You were so excited to maybe playing in the play area. The doctors were being cautious in case you had H1N1 - a deadly flu virus - and thus you were not allowed to go to the common play area yet.
As we were getting you ready to be moved to the 4th floor, Mummy and I took a picture of you while you were in a wheel chair. You had a mask on and you wanted it down a bit so we can see you smile. You had a great smile - even when you were sick and not feeling better. This was the last picture I took of you.
I'm so sorry Dom. I wish things could've turned out different for you, us, and our family. We're in so much pain without you and all we want is for you to be with us again.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
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This day last year on Thursday, you were fnally getting better. You had an echo and your heart looked good. The doctors agreed to move you to a regular floor instead of staying at ICU. Usually that's great news - which means you go home in a few days. You were so excited to maybe playing in the play area. The doctors were being cautious in case you had H1N1 - a deadly flu virus - and thus you were not allowed to go to the common play area yet.
As we were getting you ready to be moved to the 4th floor, Mummy and I took a picture of you while you were in a wheel chair. You had a mask on and you wanted it down a bit so we can see you smile. You had a great smile - even when you were sick and not feeling better. This was the last picture I took of you.
I'm so sorry Dom. I wish things could've turned out different for you, us, and our family. We're in so much pain without you and all we want is for you to be with us again.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
---
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Wednesday, September 15, 2010
15-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This day last year (Wed) you looked like you were getting better. The steroids seem to have brought your inflammation down and you were becoming yourself again - less agitated, talking more, and smiling at people. You also had your first meal since the day you were checked in at the hospital (Sat). As soon as you got your Mac N Cheese you were ready to eat. I had to slow you down since you were eating too fast. Mummy and I were feeling hopeful that you were getting better and we could all come home soon.
I forgot to mention to you in my letter yesterday (Tuesday) the same day last year, you were getting visits from famous people. You talked to David Beckham about how you played soccer in the summer and how you kicked the ball so well. You also got visits from Justin Bieber and Shakira. When I was there during the day, you got a visit from Build-A-Bear. There were a lot of famous personalities who gave you pictures and autographs that I didn't know about.
This afternoon when I was running around our neighborhood, I saw Gracie, the cat on Pembrook. You used to like and pet her but she's always been shy. Mummy and I walked to Jons restaurant and had dinner. We saw the turtles at the front and we remembered how you liked to look at them. Also while we were walking and talking about you the lamppost lights turned off - hopefully it was a sign from you.
We miss you so much Dom. It's been so painful this week and I'm rewinding myself to last year when you were still alive.
I love you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
This day last year (Wed) you looked like you were getting better. The steroids seem to have brought your inflammation down and you were becoming yourself again - less agitated, talking more, and smiling at people. You also had your first meal since the day you were checked in at the hospital (Sat). As soon as you got your Mac N Cheese you were ready to eat. I had to slow you down since you were eating too fast. Mummy and I were feeling hopeful that you were getting better and we could all come home soon.
I forgot to mention to you in my letter yesterday (Tuesday) the same day last year, you were getting visits from famous people. You talked to David Beckham about how you played soccer in the summer and how you kicked the ball so well. You also got visits from Justin Bieber and Shakira. When I was there during the day, you got a visit from Build-A-Bear. There were a lot of famous personalities who gave you pictures and autographs that I didn't know about.
This afternoon when I was running around our neighborhood, I saw Gracie, the cat on Pembrook. You used to like and pet her but she's always been shy. Mummy and I walked to Jons restaurant and had dinner. We saw the turtles at the front and we remembered how you liked to look at them. Also while we were walking and talking about you the lamppost lights turned off - hopefully it was a sign from you.
We miss you so much Dom. It's been so painful this week and I'm rewinding myself to last year when you were still alive.
I love you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
14-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This day (Tues) last year, you were still at CHOC Pediatric Cardio ICU. I think your last meal was Saturday at breakfast before we took you to the hospital. I think you're so hungry by now and agitated since it's been 3 days without food. I think finally the doctors decided to give you Prednisolone - steroids to keep your inflammation under control. You still didn't look well but I think by night time you were feeling a tiny bit better.
I went for a run in our neighborhood today. In one of the neighborhoods, there was a kid about your age in a Razor just like yours. He decided to race me to the end of the street. It reminded me of how I used to run around the neighborhood with you on a bike or ATV. I then proceeded to Bolsa Chica and went around McDonald's and entered back into our neighborhood where Sammy lives. Sammy and Kayla were out in the street. Sammy's finally on a bike without training wheels. He told me that he was so sad this week thinking about you and he wanted to get you from heaven.
I just wish we could get you back. Everyday this week takes me back to last year when you were at the hospital. It's very painful and I wish we could all be together again and be a family again.
I love you so much Dom and I miss you,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
This day (Tues) last year, you were still at CHOC Pediatric Cardio ICU. I think your last meal was Saturday at breakfast before we took you to the hospital. I think you're so hungry by now and agitated since it's been 3 days without food. I think finally the doctors decided to give you Prednisolone - steroids to keep your inflammation under control. You still didn't look well but I think by night time you were feeling a tiny bit better.
I went for a run in our neighborhood today. In one of the neighborhoods, there was a kid about your age in a Razor just like yours. He decided to race me to the end of the street. It reminded me of how I used to run around the neighborhood with you on a bike or ATV. I then proceeded to Bolsa Chica and went around McDonald's and entered back into our neighborhood where Sammy lives. Sammy and Kayla were out in the street. Sammy's finally on a bike without training wheels. He told me that he was so sad this week thinking about you and he wanted to get you from heaven.
I just wish we could get you back. Everyday this week takes me back to last year when you were at the hospital. It's very painful and I wish we could all be together again and be a family again.
I love you so much Dom and I miss you,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Monday, September 13, 2010
13-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This time last year you were at CHOC Cardiology ICU. You looked very sick - your eyes were puffy and your tummy was bloated. You had fluids in your lungs and heart from your inflammation. Your doctors wanted to treat you with antibiotics as they thought your inflammation was caused by a virus or bacteria. You were in so much pain when the nurses flushed your IV line. We thought you were going to get better eventually - like you had before. We didn't know it'll be your last week on earth with us. I am so sorry that you got so sick. I wish I could have done something to keep you healthy.
It's very painful to live everyday knowing that you are no longer here with us. This week brings very sad memories of when you were in the hospital last year, the pain you had to go through, and days of not being able to eat. I know that you were not yourself at the hospital last year. You were snappy sometimes at the nurses since you were not feeling well.
I love you and miss you so much Dom
Dad
-----
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Sent from my iPhone
Saturday, September 11, 2010
11-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
It's 51 weeks today since you passed away. Friday last year, you wanted to come with me to take Dave to Torrance and drop him off at his mom's. You were sick already but you still wanted to go. After I gave you a bath, you were not feeling well and stayed home with mummy instead. Late nigh Friday last year you were so sick and we had you sleep in bed with us. That was the last time we were all in bed together.
This time last year we took you to Memorial Care and the doc sent us to St Joseph ER next to CHOC since he thought you may have appendicitis. We took you to St Joseph and you got admitted early Sunday morning to CHOC because your inflammation was elevated. You went through the MRI machine and you were brave. You even asked if you could smile in front of the camera and you did.
This morning, when I came downstairs, the light was on in the living room. Mummy also said that you turned the light on when she was in the living room early this morning. We like to see signs from you that you're still with us.
We miss you so much Dom.
I love you and I hope to see you again when my time comes.
Dad
-----
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Sent from my iPhone
Thursday, September 9, 2010
9-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This day last year you got sick in school. Mummy picked you up from Village View and you didn't look well.
I miss you so much Dom. It's almost a year since we last saw you and we're in pain everyday. We wake up and dreading the day ahead without you.
I love you Dom,
Dad
-----
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Sent from my iPhone
Monday, September 6, 2010
6-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
It was 50 weeks last Saturday since you passed away. It's hard to believe that in about 2 weeks it'll be your 1st death anniversary - or angel day.
Life has been so hard on us. We've been cleaning your room this weekend and it's hard not to feel sad. We miss you so much and we will always be thinking of you. The toys in your room remind us of great memories - the piano you played with every morning you woke up, the helicopter/airplane pad that goes in circles, different roller coasters, cars and electronic games. We've kept your favorite clothes in a box so we can remember the great days we've had with you. I hope we see you in the eternal life and be with you again forever.
We visited you at Good Shepherd last Friday. We left you some sea shells from Puerto Rico that you collected from the shore. It was one of our best vacations. You were trying to talk Spanish to the local kids in the pool.
Mummy saw a light gray kitty on Pembrook and the kitty approached her. We hope it was a sign from you. Mummy was petting it for a while.
I saw the Mini Cooper with a Jack flag (England) and the Lamborghini in the attic today. I was going to give it to you on a special day since you're into cars.
I love you Dom and I miss you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
It was 50 weeks last Saturday since you passed away. It's hard to believe that in about 2 weeks it'll be your 1st death anniversary - or angel day.
Life has been so hard on us. We've been cleaning your room this weekend and it's hard not to feel sad. We miss you so much and we will always be thinking of you. The toys in your room remind us of great memories - the piano you played with every morning you woke up, the helicopter/airplane pad that goes in circles, different roller coasters, cars and electronic games. We've kept your favorite clothes in a box so we can remember the great days we've had with you. I hope we see you in the eternal life and be with you again forever.
We visited you at Good Shepherd last Friday. We left you some sea shells from Puerto Rico that you collected from the shore. It was one of our best vacations. You were trying to talk Spanish to the local kids in the pool.
Mummy saw a light gray kitty on Pembrook and the kitty approached her. We hope it was a sign from you. Mummy was petting it for a while.
I saw the Mini Cooper with a Jack flag (England) and the Lamborghini in the attic today. I was going to give it to you on a special day since you're into cars.
I love you Dom and I miss you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Monday, August 30, 2010
30-Aug-2010
Dear Dom,
It's been 49 weeks last Saturday since you passed away. It doesn't get any easier and each day that passes by is another heartache day of missing you.
Mummy and I went to our house in the desert last Saturday to check up on things, fix up a few things and get it ready for renters on Sept 1. We went for a swim while we were there and we remembered the great memories of you in the pool. You'd be so excited on the way to the desert in anticipation of swimming in our pool and dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. It's hard to enjoy things anymore since you've been gone.
We were glad to get signs from you last week. You turned on the light and fan in our living room. It's a great reminder for us that you still come and visit.
We miss you so much Dom. The days leading to your death anniversary is so sad and depressing for us.
I love you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
It's been 49 weeks last Saturday since you passed away. It doesn't get any easier and each day that passes by is another heartache day of missing you.
Mummy and I went to our house in the desert last Saturday to check up on things, fix up a few things and get it ready for renters on Sept 1. We went for a swim while we were there and we remembered the great memories of you in the pool. You'd be so excited on the way to the desert in anticipation of swimming in our pool and dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. It's hard to enjoy things anymore since you've been gone.
We were glad to get signs from you last week. You turned on the light and fan in our living room. It's a great reminder for us that you still come and visit.
We miss you so much Dom. The days leading to your death anniversary is so sad and depressing for us.
I love you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Sunday, August 22, 2010
22-Aug-2010
Dear Dom,
It's your birthday today! Happy Birthday and I hope you get to celebrate in heaven. It's hard to celebrate here on earth without you. We are thinking of you and your birthday last year. Remember, you had a great birthday at Chuck E Cheese. I wish it was still last year and we get to spend the day with you.
This week has been really hard on mummy and I. As you can tell, we're in tears all the time. It's still hard to believe that you are no longer with us. I know in my heart that you are in a safe and wonderful place. I just wish that you were with us all the time and seeing you grow and learn.
I saw 4 kitties today when I ran around the neighborhood. I think that's the most I've seen in a day.
I hope you can show us more signs today.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
It's your birthday today! Happy Birthday and I hope you get to celebrate in heaven. It's hard to celebrate here on earth without you. We are thinking of you and your birthday last year. Remember, you had a great birthday at Chuck E Cheese. I wish it was still last year and we get to spend the day with you.
This week has been really hard on mummy and I. As you can tell, we're in tears all the time. It's still hard to believe that you are no longer with us. I know in my heart that you are in a safe and wonderful place. I just wish that you were with us all the time and seeing you grow and learn.
I saw 4 kitties today when I ran around the neighborhood. I think that's the most I've seen in a day.
I hope you can show us more signs today.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Saturday, August 21, 2010
21-Aug-2010
Dear Dom,
It's been 48 weeks since you passed away. This time last year, your birthday was on a Saturday. It's so sad that you are not here with us tomorrow on your birthday. We always wonder how tall you'd be by now, how you would look, and how you would've done in school. Mummy and I have always been proud of you. You are the world to us. Mummy and I are crushed that you're not here with us. I wish I could've done something to save you.
I hope you've been sending us signs this week. The fan and light have been turned on by the living room lots of times. I saw a kitty that looked like Sapphie.
I will always think of you wherever I am. I look forward to the day I cross over and join you in the after life. I wish we can all be together again and be a family in the eternal life. Right now, our life on earth seems hopeless and meaningless without you.
You would be 8 tomorrow. I'm pretty sure you would've outgrown your yellow bike. You've been wanting to ride Dave's bigger bike last year but it doesn't seem safe yet. Although you can balance, you need to be able to control the bike and put both feet down.
It'll be a very sad weekend, Dom. I'll be thinking of last year when you were still alive.
I miss you so much and I love you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
It's been 48 weeks since you passed away. This time last year, your birthday was on a Saturday. It's so sad that you are not here with us tomorrow on your birthday. We always wonder how tall you'd be by now, how you would look, and how you would've done in school. Mummy and I have always been proud of you. You are the world to us. Mummy and I are crushed that you're not here with us. I wish I could've done something to save you.
I hope you've been sending us signs this week. The fan and light have been turned on by the living room lots of times. I saw a kitty that looked like Sapphie.
I will always think of you wherever I am. I look forward to the day I cross over and join you in the after life. I wish we can all be together again and be a family in the eternal life. Right now, our life on earth seems hopeless and meaningless without you.
You would be 8 tomorrow. I'm pretty sure you would've outgrown your yellow bike. You've been wanting to ride Dave's bigger bike last year but it doesn't seem safe yet. Although you can balance, you need to be able to control the bike and put both feet down.
It'll be a very sad weekend, Dom. I'll be thinking of last year when you were still alive.
I miss you so much and I love you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Saturday, August 14, 2010
14-Aug-2010
Dear Dom,
It's 47 weeks today since you passed away. In 8 days, it'll be your birthday. It will be very sad for our family leading up to your birthday. We miss you so much and we wish it was still last year when you were alive.
Life seems very unfair for us. We will never know why you had Takayasu and a heart condition. Our doctors say that it's neither from me or mummy that caused it. There are only a few children in the US that have Takayasu. It's hard to accept and understand why it had to be you. You were the sweetest kid in the world and yet you were taken away from us. Mummy and I continue to talk about you and continue to remeber things that you said. Like when you were in England, you told Aunt Les and Aunt Jeanette how you liked their condo. When you don't like something you would say "No thank you, it's not my favorite". When you know the rules, you accepted it. Like when we had Universal or Disney passes, you would mention something like "Are we not going to go ride the ferris wheel cause we have Disney passes?" And when we acknowledged you accepted it. We are very proud on how you had great manners. You always said thank you and please.
Last night, I dreamt about you. I went down to the kitchen and I thought I could feel your presence. When I tried to feel you with my hands I felt something cold. I knelt down on the floor and we hugged each other. I knew it was you and I could feel the love from you. I couldn't see you but I knew you were there.
I miss you so much Dom. All I can do now is look back at the great memories and hope in the future that we can be together again in the after life.
I love you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
It's 47 weeks today since you passed away. In 8 days, it'll be your birthday. It will be very sad for our family leading up to your birthday. We miss you so much and we wish it was still last year when you were alive.
Life seems very unfair for us. We will never know why you had Takayasu and a heart condition. Our doctors say that it's neither from me or mummy that caused it. There are only a few children in the US that have Takayasu. It's hard to accept and understand why it had to be you. You were the sweetest kid in the world and yet you were taken away from us. Mummy and I continue to talk about you and continue to remeber things that you said. Like when you were in England, you told Aunt Les and Aunt Jeanette how you liked their condo. When you don't like something you would say "No thank you, it's not my favorite". When you know the rules, you accepted it. Like when we had Universal or Disney passes, you would mention something like "Are we not going to go ride the ferris wheel cause we have Disney passes?" And when we acknowledged you accepted it. We are very proud on how you had great manners. You always said thank you and please.
Last night, I dreamt about you. I went down to the kitchen and I thought I could feel your presence. When I tried to feel you with my hands I felt something cold. I knelt down on the floor and we hugged each other. I knew it was you and I could feel the love from you. I couldn't see you but I knew you were there.
I miss you so much Dom. All I can do now is look back at the great memories and hope in the future that we can be together again in the after life.
I love you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Dominic's Phrases when he was 2
Phrases used at home | |||
| Help me | Out there | In there | Up there |
| Tent up | Shoes on/off | Bye-bye, guys. | Daddy, where are you? |
| Daddy work | David school. | Hi, Daddy/Mummy/David | Daddy's truck
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| David's hoop | Mummy's car | Daddy's lawnmower | Calvin's train |
| Aunt Julie | Uncle Paul | Liam and Kelsey | Big Daddy |
| Saffie bites (Aunt's cat) | Buster sleeping (neighbors dog) | Cat soft, fluffy | Huckles Cat |
| Happy Baby ABC | Not now | TV on | Movie on |
| Big clock | Small clock | Fire off | Fire on |
| Light off | Light on | Open door | Close door |
| Itchy legs | Itchy lotion, better. | Bath time | Laundry, look. |
| Eat dinner | Hungry, eat. | Mash, chicken, vegetables. | Peach or Strawberry? |
| Cup, please? | Snacks, please? | Book, read. | Mummy, cuddle |
| One more minute. | All done | All finished, doctors. | Kiss Mummy |
| Down, please | Sit there, see. | Silly monkey | Silly Dominic |
| Poo, diaper | Change diaper | Wash hands | I'll be back |
| Sore, hurts | Sit down | Answers Yes or No to some questions | Walk down |
| Upside down | All fall down. |
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At the park | |||
| Swing, wee | Out, park. | Birdy, tree. | Kite, sky. |
| Spinning wheel | Up steps |
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Talking about Appletree | |||
| Appletree, ready | Play, Appletree | Rhonda kissy fish | See Jimmy |
| Guitar, Eric | Music teacher | Play piano | Drum, big drum |
| Push grocery cart | Push truck | Push car | Push button |
| Push lawnmower | Kiss friends | Share, friends | No pushing |
Also… | |||
| Can say the numbers 1 through 12. | |||
| Recognizes and says all letters in alphabet (upper case). | |||
| Emerging skill – singing the whole ABC song. | |||
| Knows most obvious body parts – hands, hair, eyes, nose, ears, legs, tummy, | |||
| Recognizes and says shapes – triangle, rectangle, circle, square, star. | |||
| Recognizes and say colors – blue, pink, red, white, green, orange, black, purple. | |||
Words
| Mummy | Daddy | David | Lily | Ryan |
| Robbie | Katrina | Erika | Cathy | Nicki |
| Cup | Bowl | Spoon | Medicine | Drum |
| Park | Slide | Swing | Steps | Hi |
| Dog | Cat | Lion | Monkey | Horse |
| Butterfly | Giraffe | Octupus | Duck | Tiger |
| Fish | Bird | Elephant | Mouse | Elmo |
| Big | Small | Milk | Juice | Water |
| Spaghetti | Mash | Pudding | Yogurt | Chips |
| Hot | Cold | Fire | Clock | Fire-truck |
| Appletree | Joanna | Yehir | Guitar | Piano |
| Aeroplane | Helicopter | Truck | Cat | Bus |
| Funny | Cheeky | Silly | More | Okay |
| Racing | Backride | Messy | Wipe |
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Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Sunday, August 1, 2010
1-Aug-2010
Dear Dom,
It's the 1st day of August. Yesterday was Saturday and 45 weeks since you passed away. It's going to be very hard for our family the next 2 months. Your birthday is coming up in 3 weeks and your death anniversary in September. How I wish we were still in the summer of 2009 when we were having such great fun.
Mummy and I went to the desert to check on our house. We went to Rancho Mirage where the Cheesecake Factory is to watch a movie and pass time. We had dinner at a pizza restaurant that you've never been to.
As I was wateting the plants at our in the desert this morning, a hummingbird flew very close to me - as if it were drawn to me. It wasn't scared and was just about a few inches from where I was standing. I was going to try and hold it but it flew away. Then when I was in the backyard washing our patio furniture, the hummingbird was there again. It was sitting on the clothes line we have right outside the master bedroom. I hope it was a sign from you. It just seems that the hummingbird was drawn to me.
There are lot of great memories of you at our house in the desert. This is where you learned how to bike. Remeber in our drive way, mummy and I taught you how to bike and you did so great. Then of course we have our pool that you enjoyed so much. Every time we planned to go to our house in the desert you were so excited and wanting to go in the pool right away. I also remembered when we rented a big U Haul truck to bring furniture and other stuff to our house. You and I were in the U Haul truck and you enjoyed the bumpy ride - specially on Pearson when the road seemed like a roller coaster. The following day after we moved our stuff to our desert house, we returned the U Haul truck in the desert. You asked and wondered how we were going to bring our furniture back to Huntington Beach! I guess you didn't realize that our vacation house was permanent.
I miss you so much, Dom. I wish you were here.
I love you,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
It's the 1st day of August. Yesterday was Saturday and 45 weeks since you passed away. It's going to be very hard for our family the next 2 months. Your birthday is coming up in 3 weeks and your death anniversary in September. How I wish we were still in the summer of 2009 when we were having such great fun.
Mummy and I went to the desert to check on our house. We went to Rancho Mirage where the Cheesecake Factory is to watch a movie and pass time. We had dinner at a pizza restaurant that you've never been to.
As I was wateting the plants at our in the desert this morning, a hummingbird flew very close to me - as if it were drawn to me. It wasn't scared and was just about a few inches from where I was standing. I was going to try and hold it but it flew away. Then when I was in the backyard washing our patio furniture, the hummingbird was there again. It was sitting on the clothes line we have right outside the master bedroom. I hope it was a sign from you. It just seems that the hummingbird was drawn to me.
There are lot of great memories of you at our house in the desert. This is where you learned how to bike. Remeber in our drive way, mummy and I taught you how to bike and you did so great. Then of course we have our pool that you enjoyed so much. Every time we planned to go to our house in the desert you were so excited and wanting to go in the pool right away. I also remembered when we rented a big U Haul truck to bring furniture and other stuff to our house. You and I were in the U Haul truck and you enjoyed the bumpy ride - specially on Pearson when the road seemed like a roller coaster. The following day after we moved our stuff to our desert house, we returned the U Haul truck in the desert. You asked and wondered how we were going to bring our furniture back to Huntington Beach! I guess you didn't realize that our vacation house was permanent.
I miss you so much, Dom. I wish you were here.
I love you,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Saturday, July 24, 2010
24-Jul-2010
Dear Dom,
It's 44 weeks today since you passed away. As you probably know, we're not doing well. It's hard to live without you. We have great memories of you but the pain lingers on each day you're not with us. As we go through life we remember how you were when you were with us.
Today we saw movies at The Block in Orange. We watch movies on weekends to pass time and to help ease our pain. Even watching movies will remind us of how you were - things that you like, say, eat, or whatever. You had so much to offer and we're so glad you turned out to be the best boy mummy and I ever wanted.
This week while watching TV we saw a commercial of Quiznos with cats. You would've liked the commercial and probably laugh like you did when we used to watch cats on You Tube. There's a new movie Cats & Dogs that you would want to see as well.
We will always remember you wherever we are. Each day is painful but we remember the best 7 years when you were here.
I love you Dom and miss you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
The New Busy is not the too busy. Combine all your e-mail accounts with Hotmail. Get busy.
It's 44 weeks today since you passed away. As you probably know, we're not doing well. It's hard to live without you. We have great memories of you but the pain lingers on each day you're not with us. As we go through life we remember how you were when you were with us.
Today we saw movies at The Block in Orange. We watch movies on weekends to pass time and to help ease our pain. Even watching movies will remind us of how you were - things that you like, say, eat, or whatever. You had so much to offer and we're so glad you turned out to be the best boy mummy and I ever wanted.
This week while watching TV we saw a commercial of Quiznos with cats. You would've liked the commercial and probably laugh like you did when we used to watch cats on You Tube. There's a new movie Cats & Dogs that you would want to see as well.
We will always remember you wherever we are. Each day is painful but we remember the best 7 years when you were here.
I love you Dom and miss you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
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Saturday, July 17, 2010
17-Jul-2010
Dear Dom,
It's my birthday today and it just doesn't feel right celebrating without you. It's been 43 weeks since you passed away.
I went for a run in our neighborhood today and I didn't get any signs from you - maybe next time. I've been going to 24 Hr Fitness the last few days with Dave so he can work out as well. You used to get excited when I came home from work and you wanted to go to 24 so you can be with the other kids.
It was a nice warm day today and all I could think of was I wish you were here so we could enjoy the weather with your bike or ATV. We may even be at our house in the desert and swimming in our pool. Or maybe at our pool in Huntington Beach.
I think of you a lot wherever I am. Mummy misses you a lot and she wishes that you are with us. Waking up feels empty without you. I miss every morning when you came to our bedroom. I miss saying good night to you. I miss hearing your voice and telling me how your day went. I miss you looking out the window when you hear that I'm home from work.
I love you Dom,
Dad
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Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
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It's my birthday today and it just doesn't feel right celebrating without you. It's been 43 weeks since you passed away.
I went for a run in our neighborhood today and I didn't get any signs from you - maybe next time. I've been going to 24 Hr Fitness the last few days with Dave so he can work out as well. You used to get excited when I came home from work and you wanted to go to 24 so you can be with the other kids.
It was a nice warm day today and all I could think of was I wish you were here so we could enjoy the weather with your bike or ATV. We may even be at our house in the desert and swimming in our pool. Or maybe at our pool in Huntington Beach.
I think of you a lot wherever I am. Mummy misses you a lot and she wishes that you are with us. Waking up feels empty without you. I miss every morning when you came to our bedroom. I miss saying good night to you. I miss hearing your voice and telling me how your day went. I miss you looking out the window when you hear that I'm home from work.
I love you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
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Sunday, July 11, 2010
11-Jul-2010
Dear Dom,
I dreamt about you last night. You were in the shower sitting by the blue stepping stool you used to have in your bathroom. You said hi to me and you sounded how I remembered you. I hugged and you told you how I missed you and that I love you. You were how I remember you.
I also saw 2 birds came by close to me today as I was running around the neighborhood.
I hope these are signs from you, Dom
I live you and miss you Dom,
Dad
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Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
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Friday, July 9, 2010
9-Jul-2010
Dear Dom,
It'll be 42 weeks tomorrow since you passed away. It's still very hard to believe that you're no longer with us. As you know, it was mummy's birthday yesterday. It was the saddest birthday she ever had. Mummy and I miss you so much and we wish you're here with us. You made life so wonderful when you were here. Everything was an adventure and everyday was a new day to look forward to.
I went running in our neighborhood yesterday and a pair of dogs came to me. I hope it was a sign from you that you're trying to reach out to me. And today, I saw 3 cats when I went for my run. I try and look for things that could be a sign from you. I wish there was a way I could see you. I want to see your happy face and know that you're safe and ok.
We'll be going to our house in the desert tomorrow to clean up. We had renters from last weekend - the 4th of July. I hope you come and visit us at the desert. We'll probably just be there for the day and come home in the evening.
We visited you at Good Shepherd today and brought you some flowers. I hope you like how the flowers look. It's sad and painful when we visit you at Good Shepherd. It's a very painful reminder that you're no longer with us. I find it more comforting when I talk to you when I'm driving or running. It almost feels like you're listening. Every time I ask or wonder where you are - something comes up like a cat would cross my path or a pair of birds would fly by in front of me or dogs coming up to me.
I miss you Dom and I love you,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
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It'll be 42 weeks tomorrow since you passed away. It's still very hard to believe that you're no longer with us. As you know, it was mummy's birthday yesterday. It was the saddest birthday she ever had. Mummy and I miss you so much and we wish you're here with us. You made life so wonderful when you were here. Everything was an adventure and everyday was a new day to look forward to.
I went running in our neighborhood yesterday and a pair of dogs came to me. I hope it was a sign from you that you're trying to reach out to me. And today, I saw 3 cats when I went for my run. I try and look for things that could be a sign from you. I wish there was a way I could see you. I want to see your happy face and know that you're safe and ok.
We'll be going to our house in the desert tomorrow to clean up. We had renters from last weekend - the 4th of July. I hope you come and visit us at the desert. We'll probably just be there for the day and come home in the evening.
We visited you at Good Shepherd today and brought you some flowers. I hope you like how the flowers look. It's sad and painful when we visit you at Good Shepherd. It's a very painful reminder that you're no longer with us. I find it more comforting when I talk to you when I'm driving or running. It almost feels like you're listening. Every time I ask or wonder where you are - something comes up like a cat would cross my path or a pair of birds would fly by in front of me or dogs coming up to me.
I miss you Dom and I love you,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
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Sunday, July 4, 2010
4-Jul-2010
Dear Dom,
It's 4th of July today. Mummy and I visited you at Good Shepherd. We saw a beautiful butterfly fly around and landed on your Old Glory. I was going to take a picture but I think it got scared and flew away. However, within a few seconds, the butterfly came back and just flew around me and mummy like putting a show for us. Then the butterfly found a friend butterfly and they flew away together. It was a yellow butterfly with the edge of it's wings brown. I believe that's a sign from you.
I love you Dom and miss you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
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It's 4th of July today. Mummy and I visited you at Good Shepherd. We saw a beautiful butterfly fly around and landed on your Old Glory. I was going to take a picture but I think it got scared and flew away. However, within a few seconds, the butterfly came back and just flew around me and mummy like putting a show for us. Then the butterfly found a friend butterfly and they flew away together. It was a yellow butterfly with the edge of it's wings brown. I believe that's a sign from you.
I love you Dom and miss you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
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Friday, July 2, 2010
2-Jul-2010
Dear Dom,
It's the 4th of July weekend. This time last year we went to our house in the desert. Remember, we bought fireworks and I did our family fireworks show in our backyard? You and mummy were worried sometimes when I tried to re-light fireworks that failed. Even our neighbors were looking over the fence to watch our fireworks.
I wish it was still last year when you were still with us. Every day is hard without you. But everything I see reminds me of you. A kitty, a dog, birds, parks, swimming pool, McDonald's, anywhere. It's comforting to know you enjoyed 7 years with us but sad and devastating that it was a short 7 years.
Mummy and I visited you at Good Shepherd today. We put a pair of OLd Glory and some cones that you like. I hope you saw us and were with us. I try and look for signs that you're around or talking to us.
It'll be a very sad weekend. All the families are going to have fun with family and friends. Mummy and I will try and watch movies to pass time. Our neighbors in Huntington Beach will probably have a block party before each family watch fireworks on Sunday. You and I went to the party 2 years ago and you played on the bouncy with a bunch of kids.
Everytime I think of you I feel a choke in my throat. I do remember most of the happy times we had and I try to hold on to those memories.
I love you Dom and miss you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
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It's the 4th of July weekend. This time last year we went to our house in the desert. Remember, we bought fireworks and I did our family fireworks show in our backyard? You and mummy were worried sometimes when I tried to re-light fireworks that failed. Even our neighbors were looking over the fence to watch our fireworks.
I wish it was still last year when you were still with us. Every day is hard without you. But everything I see reminds me of you. A kitty, a dog, birds, parks, swimming pool, McDonald's, anywhere. It's comforting to know you enjoyed 7 years with us but sad and devastating that it was a short 7 years.
Mummy and I visited you at Good Shepherd today. We put a pair of OLd Glory and some cones that you like. I hope you saw us and were with us. I try and look for signs that you're around or talking to us.
It'll be a very sad weekend. All the families are going to have fun with family and friends. Mummy and I will try and watch movies to pass time. Our neighbors in Huntington Beach will probably have a block party before each family watch fireworks on Sunday. You and I went to the party 2 years ago and you played on the bouncy with a bunch of kids.
Everytime I think of you I feel a choke in my throat. I do remember most of the happy times we had and I try to hold on to those memories.
I love you Dom and miss you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
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Monday, June 28, 2010
28-June-2010
Dear Dom,
It's been 40 weeks last Saturday since you passed away. Mummy and I are still devastated and we miss you more than ever. It just seems unfair that you had so much to offer to this world yet you're no longer with us. I've been reading a lot of books about eternal life and mediums and I'm convinced that you are in heaven and in a very good place. It's comforting to know that you are in heaven but it's very sad for mummy and I that we are not together at the moment.
Last Friday, Dave attended a grief camp called Comfort Zone. It was at a campsite in the Regional Park in Irvine. You've been there before - with Ryan. We all went on a train ride, had a picnic, and just played in the park. Dave was with other kids who lost a loved one - fathers, mums, and siblings (brother or sister). It was comforting yet sad to be there at the closing ceremony. The camp site was very nice and I'm sure that you would've loved to be there. It also reminds me of our camp at Yucaipa - we called Bug Camp. We went to Yucaipa when you were just over a year old. CHOC invited us to the camp to be with other families who've experienced tremendous pain and suffering when children like you were so sick.
It was good for Dave to be at the grief camp. He learned how to cope and met other kids who lost a loved one. They were able to talk about their loss like you and had a memorial service to remember you and all the other loved ones who have passed away. Some of the kids who went to camp reminded us of you - like the girl who was not shy on the stage, and the boy who went on a back ride, and so many others. I hope you had a chance to visit Dave and gave him positive energy.
It's been very hard on us since you passed away. Mummy and I try to do things to pass time - like watch movies, go to our grief support meetings, or go for a drive. I can sometimes smile and remember happy and great memories about you. Last night mummy and I were talking about the stuff you used to do - like when you used to call mummy "Mama" at Ms Shikuma's class and Tommy (the new kid) had no idea. We also remember how you used to say "... 100 %" and how you had your English accent.
I hope I can be with you and see you again when my time comes. I also hope we can be a family again in the eternal life.
I love you Dom and miss you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
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It's been 40 weeks last Saturday since you passed away. Mummy and I are still devastated and we miss you more than ever. It just seems unfair that you had so much to offer to this world yet you're no longer with us. I've been reading a lot of books about eternal life and mediums and I'm convinced that you are in heaven and in a very good place. It's comforting to know that you are in heaven but it's very sad for mummy and I that we are not together at the moment.
Last Friday, Dave attended a grief camp called Comfort Zone. It was at a campsite in the Regional Park in Irvine. You've been there before - with Ryan. We all went on a train ride, had a picnic, and just played in the park. Dave was with other kids who lost a loved one - fathers, mums, and siblings (brother or sister). It was comforting yet sad to be there at the closing ceremony. The camp site was very nice and I'm sure that you would've loved to be there. It also reminds me of our camp at Yucaipa - we called Bug Camp. We went to Yucaipa when you were just over a year old. CHOC invited us to the camp to be with other families who've experienced tremendous pain and suffering when children like you were so sick.
It was good for Dave to be at the grief camp. He learned how to cope and met other kids who lost a loved one. They were able to talk about their loss like you and had a memorial service to remember you and all the other loved ones who have passed away. Some of the kids who went to camp reminded us of you - like the girl who was not shy on the stage, and the boy who went on a back ride, and so many others. I hope you had a chance to visit Dave and gave him positive energy.
It's been very hard on us since you passed away. Mummy and I try to do things to pass time - like watch movies, go to our grief support meetings, or go for a drive. I can sometimes smile and remember happy and great memories about you. Last night mummy and I were talking about the stuff you used to do - like when you used to call mummy "Mama" at Ms Shikuma's class and Tommy (the new kid) had no idea. We also remember how you used to say "... 100 %" and how you had your English accent.
I hope I can be with you and see you again when my time comes. I also hope we can be a family again in the eternal life.
I love you Dom and miss you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
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