Dear Dom,
This week and last week a year ago, mummy and I were so devastated that you were gone. We still feel devastated and life has changed for the worst for us. It was hard to believe that we were preparing for funeral services last year. We had to visit Heritage Memorial Services and St Bonaventure to arrange for your memorial service. We wrote a tribute and printed off a memorial brochure so we can hand it out to anyone who came to your memorial service. It was very overwhelming and so sad that we had to do these things. You gave us 7 years of great memories and we wish we had many many years with you.
The fan has been turned on in the living room the last 2 days. It was on when I left early for work yesterday and this morning, mummy said it was on again when she came down. It's nice to know that you're still around. How we wish we can see you and feel you. But knowing that you're with us through signs and dreams are comforting.
As you know, I look at your pictures at work all day when I have my laptop on. Each picture is a reminder of how wonderful you are.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
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Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
19-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
Today is your death anniversary. It is the 19th and a very sad memory of what happened last year when you passed away.
We wanted to do something for your memory today. About a week ago, we signed up to do a walk in Orange County for the American Heart Association. We asked friends and family if they can donate for the cause in your memory. So this morning, we did our 1st OC Heart Walk for the American Heart Association in your memory. The donations will help fund research and education to fight heart disease. As I was doing the walk today, I saw some people doing a walk in memory of their loved ones. I felt so sad and felt emotional about the cause. How I wish you were born healthy and we would be happy everyday enjoying every moment with you.
I miss you so much Dom and I love you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Today is your death anniversary. It is the 19th and a very sad memory of what happened last year when you passed away.
We wanted to do something for your memory today. About a week ago, we signed up to do a walk in Orange County for the American Heart Association. We asked friends and family if they can donate for the cause in your memory. So this morning, we did our 1st OC Heart Walk for the American Heart Association in your memory. The donations will help fund research and education to fight heart disease. As I was doing the walk today, I saw some people doing a walk in memory of their loved ones. I felt so sad and felt emotional about the cause. How I wish you were born healthy and we would be happy everyday enjoying every moment with you.
I miss you so much Dom and I love you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Saturday, September 18, 2010
18-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This day on Saturday last year is when you passed away. I left home thinking that you were coming home. I shouldn't have stopped by at Starbucks - maybe I would've had a chance to see you alive. When I got off the elevator on the 4th floor to go to your room, I knew something was wrong. There was a lot of doctors and nurses getting in and out of your room. I tried to rush and wanted to see you but they stopped me outside of your room. Mummy was outside of your room as well, Mummy told me your hear stopped and the doctors were trying to bring you back. The nurse said that you were being given a cardiac massage so your blood and oxygen continue to circulate in your system. We tried to pray and be strong so when you come back we'd be there you. Unfortunately, you never came back.
When Dr Anaz came out to talk to Dr Weiner on the phone - mummy and I were so shocked and devastated that you passed away. Dr Anas tried to bring you back but your heart would not beat anymore. We found out a few weeks later you had a huge blood clot behind your heart.
What turned out to be hopeful for the weekend that you may be coming home ended in the worst nightmare. We called our family and everyone came to see you. Everyone was so shocked and sad that you're gone. The doctors did not have any explanation on what happened - from a good prognosis to you passing away.
Life ended for me and mummy on Sept 19, 2009 Saturday at around 9:10 AM. We never thought we'd ever lose you and here we are a year later still devastated without you.
Mummy and I have been talking about our great memories of you. We visited Good Shepherd again today. It's so painful without you.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
This day on Saturday last year is when you passed away. I left home thinking that you were coming home. I shouldn't have stopped by at Starbucks - maybe I would've had a chance to see you alive. When I got off the elevator on the 4th floor to go to your room, I knew something was wrong. There was a lot of doctors and nurses getting in and out of your room. I tried to rush and wanted to see you but they stopped me outside of your room. Mummy was outside of your room as well, Mummy told me your hear stopped and the doctors were trying to bring you back. The nurse said that you were being given a cardiac massage so your blood and oxygen continue to circulate in your system. We tried to pray and be strong so when you come back we'd be there you. Unfortunately, you never came back.
When Dr Anaz came out to talk to Dr Weiner on the phone - mummy and I were so shocked and devastated that you passed away. Dr Anas tried to bring you back but your heart would not beat anymore. We found out a few weeks later you had a huge blood clot behind your heart.
What turned out to be hopeful for the weekend that you may be coming home ended in the worst nightmare. We called our family and everyone came to see you. Everyone was so shocked and sad that you're gone. The doctors did not have any explanation on what happened - from a good prognosis to you passing away.
Life ended for me and mummy on Sept 19, 2009 Saturday at around 9:10 AM. We never thought we'd ever lose you and here we are a year later still devastated without you.
Mummy and I have been talking about our great memories of you. We visited Good Shepherd again today. It's so painful without you.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Friday, September 17, 2010
17-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This day last year on Friday, you and I were watching Tom and Jerry all day. I had my laptop from work and I used my phone to connect to the internet. We were able to watch all the Tom and Jerry shows on kidswb. We were laughing and having fun. The doctors also mentioned that you were doing well and you would be going home most likely over the weekend. Friday was the last day I saw you alive. I was trying to convince you that I should stay with you at the hospital. I wanted to give mummy a break since she's been staying with you for almost a week.
Later that day on Friday, you were just relaxing in bed and you told me that you felt like you were dead. I didn't know it was a sign or maybe you're telling me something. I wish I could have done something or the doctors could have seen anything wrong that day. I remember the day before that your blood pressure went down a bit but you started getting better later in the day. So much things were going on and we didn't know that you were so sick.
Tomorrow will be a hard day for us. It'll be 52 weeks since you passed away. I will always be grateful for the 7 years you had with us but will be so sad and devastated that you're no longer with us.
I miss you so much Dom and I love you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
This day last year on Friday, you and I were watching Tom and Jerry all day. I had my laptop from work and I used my phone to connect to the internet. We were able to watch all the Tom and Jerry shows on kidswb. We were laughing and having fun. The doctors also mentioned that you were doing well and you would be going home most likely over the weekend. Friday was the last day I saw you alive. I was trying to convince you that I should stay with you at the hospital. I wanted to give mummy a break since she's been staying with you for almost a week.
Later that day on Friday, you were just relaxing in bed and you told me that you felt like you were dead. I didn't know it was a sign or maybe you're telling me something. I wish I could have done something or the doctors could have seen anything wrong that day. I remember the day before that your blood pressure went down a bit but you started getting better later in the day. So much things were going on and we didn't know that you were so sick.
Tomorrow will be a hard day for us. It'll be 52 weeks since you passed away. I will always be grateful for the 7 years you had with us but will be so sad and devastated that you're no longer with us.
I miss you so much Dom and I love you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Thursday, September 16, 2010
16-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This day last year on Thursday, you were fnally getting better. You had an echo and your heart looked good. The doctors agreed to move you to a regular floor instead of staying at ICU. Usually that's great news - which means you go home in a few days. You were so excited to maybe playing in the play area. The doctors were being cautious in case you had H1N1 - a deadly flu virus - and thus you were not allowed to go to the common play area yet.
As we were getting you ready to be moved to the 4th floor, Mummy and I took a picture of you while you were in a wheel chair. You had a mask on and you wanted it down a bit so we can see you smile. You had a great smile - even when you were sick and not feeling better. This was the last picture I took of you.
I'm so sorry Dom. I wish things could've turned out different for you, us, and our family. We're in so much pain without you and all we want is for you to be with us again.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
This day last year on Thursday, you were fnally getting better. You had an echo and your heart looked good. The doctors agreed to move you to a regular floor instead of staying at ICU. Usually that's great news - which means you go home in a few days. You were so excited to maybe playing in the play area. The doctors were being cautious in case you had H1N1 - a deadly flu virus - and thus you were not allowed to go to the common play area yet.
As we were getting you ready to be moved to the 4th floor, Mummy and I took a picture of you while you were in a wheel chair. You had a mask on and you wanted it down a bit so we can see you smile. You had a great smile - even when you were sick and not feeling better. This was the last picture I took of you.
I'm so sorry Dom. I wish things could've turned out different for you, us, and our family. We're in so much pain without you and all we want is for you to be with us again.
I love you and miss you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
15-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This day last year (Wed) you looked like you were getting better. The steroids seem to have brought your inflammation down and you were becoming yourself again - less agitated, talking more, and smiling at people. You also had your first meal since the day you were checked in at the hospital (Sat). As soon as you got your Mac N Cheese you were ready to eat. I had to slow you down since you were eating too fast. Mummy and I were feeling hopeful that you were getting better and we could all come home soon.
I forgot to mention to you in my letter yesterday (Tuesday) the same day last year, you were getting visits from famous people. You talked to David Beckham about how you played soccer in the summer and how you kicked the ball so well. You also got visits from Justin Bieber and Shakira. When I was there during the day, you got a visit from Build-A-Bear. There were a lot of famous personalities who gave you pictures and autographs that I didn't know about.
This afternoon when I was running around our neighborhood, I saw Gracie, the cat on Pembrook. You used to like and pet her but she's always been shy. Mummy and I walked to Jons restaurant and had dinner. We saw the turtles at the front and we remembered how you liked to look at them. Also while we were walking and talking about you the lamppost lights turned off - hopefully it was a sign from you.
We miss you so much Dom. It's been so painful this week and I'm rewinding myself to last year when you were still alive.
I love you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
This day last year (Wed) you looked like you were getting better. The steroids seem to have brought your inflammation down and you were becoming yourself again - less agitated, talking more, and smiling at people. You also had your first meal since the day you were checked in at the hospital (Sat). As soon as you got your Mac N Cheese you were ready to eat. I had to slow you down since you were eating too fast. Mummy and I were feeling hopeful that you were getting better and we could all come home soon.
I forgot to mention to you in my letter yesterday (Tuesday) the same day last year, you were getting visits from famous people. You talked to David Beckham about how you played soccer in the summer and how you kicked the ball so well. You also got visits from Justin Bieber and Shakira. When I was there during the day, you got a visit from Build-A-Bear. There were a lot of famous personalities who gave you pictures and autographs that I didn't know about.
This afternoon when I was running around our neighborhood, I saw Gracie, the cat on Pembrook. You used to like and pet her but she's always been shy. Mummy and I walked to Jons restaurant and had dinner. We saw the turtles at the front and we remembered how you liked to look at them. Also while we were walking and talking about you the lamppost lights turned off - hopefully it was a sign from you.
We miss you so much Dom. It's been so painful this week and I'm rewinding myself to last year when you were still alive.
I love you Dom,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
14-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This day (Tues) last year, you were still at CHOC Pediatric Cardio ICU. I think your last meal was Saturday at breakfast before we took you to the hospital. I think you're so hungry by now and agitated since it's been 3 days without food. I think finally the doctors decided to give you Prednisolone - steroids to keep your inflammation under control. You still didn't look well but I think by night time you were feeling a tiny bit better.
I went for a run in our neighborhood today. In one of the neighborhoods, there was a kid about your age in a Razor just like yours. He decided to race me to the end of the street. It reminded me of how I used to run around the neighborhood with you on a bike or ATV. I then proceeded to Bolsa Chica and went around McDonald's and entered back into our neighborhood where Sammy lives. Sammy and Kayla were out in the street. Sammy's finally on a bike without training wheels. He told me that he was so sad this week thinking about you and he wanted to get you from heaven.
I just wish we could get you back. Everyday this week takes me back to last year when you were at the hospital. It's very painful and I wish we could all be together again and be a family again.
I love you so much Dom and I miss you,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
This day (Tues) last year, you were still at CHOC Pediatric Cardio ICU. I think your last meal was Saturday at breakfast before we took you to the hospital. I think you're so hungry by now and agitated since it's been 3 days without food. I think finally the doctors decided to give you Prednisolone - steroids to keep your inflammation under control. You still didn't look well but I think by night time you were feeling a tiny bit better.
I went for a run in our neighborhood today. In one of the neighborhoods, there was a kid about your age in a Razor just like yours. He decided to race me to the end of the street. It reminded me of how I used to run around the neighborhood with you on a bike or ATV. I then proceeded to Bolsa Chica and went around McDonald's and entered back into our neighborhood where Sammy lives. Sammy and Kayla were out in the street. Sammy's finally on a bike without training wheels. He told me that he was so sad this week thinking about you and he wanted to get you from heaven.
I just wish we could get you back. Everyday this week takes me back to last year when you were at the hospital. It's very painful and I wish we could all be together again and be a family again.
I love you so much Dom and I miss you,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
Monday, September 13, 2010
13-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This time last year you were at CHOC Cardiology ICU. You looked very sick - your eyes were puffy and your tummy was bloated. You had fluids in your lungs and heart from your inflammation. Your doctors wanted to treat you with antibiotics as they thought your inflammation was caused by a virus or bacteria. You were in so much pain when the nurses flushed your IV line. We thought you were going to get better eventually - like you had before. We didn't know it'll be your last week on earth with us. I am so sorry that you got so sick. I wish I could have done something to keep you healthy.
It's very painful to live everyday knowing that you are no longer here with us. This week brings very sad memories of when you were in the hospital last year, the pain you had to go through, and days of not being able to eat. I know that you were not yourself at the hospital last year. You were snappy sometimes at the nurses since you were not feeling well.
I love you and miss you so much Dom
Dad
-----
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
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Saturday, September 11, 2010
11-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
It's 51 weeks today since you passed away. Friday last year, you wanted to come with me to take Dave to Torrance and drop him off at his mom's. You were sick already but you still wanted to go. After I gave you a bath, you were not feeling well and stayed home with mummy instead. Late nigh Friday last year you were so sick and we had you sleep in bed with us. That was the last time we were all in bed together.
This time last year we took you to Memorial Care and the doc sent us to St Joseph ER next to CHOC since he thought you may have appendicitis. We took you to St Joseph and you got admitted early Sunday morning to CHOC because your inflammation was elevated. You went through the MRI machine and you were brave. You even asked if you could smile in front of the camera and you did.
This morning, when I came downstairs, the light was on in the living room. Mummy also said that you turned the light on when she was in the living room early this morning. We like to see signs from you that you're still with us.
We miss you so much Dom.
I love you and I hope to see you again when my time comes.
Dad
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Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Sent from my iPhone
Thursday, September 9, 2010
9-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
This day last year you got sick in school. Mummy picked you up from Village View and you didn't look well.
I miss you so much Dom. It's almost a year since we last saw you and we're in pain everyday. We wake up and dreading the day ahead without you.
I love you Dom,
Dad
-----
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Sent from my iPhone
Monday, September 6, 2010
6-Sep-2010
Dear Dom,
It was 50 weeks last Saturday since you passed away. It's hard to believe that in about 2 weeks it'll be your 1st death anniversary - or angel day.
Life has been so hard on us. We've been cleaning your room this weekend and it's hard not to feel sad. We miss you so much and we will always be thinking of you. The toys in your room remind us of great memories - the piano you played with every morning you woke up, the helicopter/airplane pad that goes in circles, different roller coasters, cars and electronic games. We've kept your favorite clothes in a box so we can remember the great days we've had with you. I hope we see you in the eternal life and be with you again forever.
We visited you at Good Shepherd last Friday. We left you some sea shells from Puerto Rico that you collected from the shore. It was one of our best vacations. You were trying to talk Spanish to the local kids in the pool.
Mummy saw a light gray kitty on Pembrook and the kitty approached her. We hope it was a sign from you. Mummy was petting it for a while.
I saw the Mini Cooper with a Jack flag (England) and the Lamborghini in the attic today. I was going to give it to you on a special day since you're into cars.
I love you Dom and I miss you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
It was 50 weeks last Saturday since you passed away. It's hard to believe that in about 2 weeks it'll be your 1st death anniversary - or angel day.
Life has been so hard on us. We've been cleaning your room this weekend and it's hard not to feel sad. We miss you so much and we will always be thinking of you. The toys in your room remind us of great memories - the piano you played with every morning you woke up, the helicopter/airplane pad that goes in circles, different roller coasters, cars and electronic games. We've kept your favorite clothes in a box so we can remember the great days we've had with you. I hope we see you in the eternal life and be with you again forever.
We visited you at Good Shepherd last Friday. We left you some sea shells from Puerto Rico that you collected from the shore. It was one of our best vacations. You were trying to talk Spanish to the local kids in the pool.
Mummy saw a light gray kitty on Pembrook and the kitty approached her. We hope it was a sign from you. Mummy was petting it for a while.
I saw the Mini Cooper with a Jack flag (England) and the Lamborghini in the attic today. I was going to give it to you on a special day since you're into cars.
I love you Dom and I miss you so much,
Dad
---
Ren Roque
(310)990-8252
Donations for AutoImmune Research In Memory of Dominic
dominicdonations.blogspot.com
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